stressed stressed stressed!

My homework is as usual still so much more to go. to be completed.

So after this short post, I will continue doing my homework.

Regretted sleeping in the afternoon which really wasted my time!

I skipped chinese class just to complete my homework, but I can't stand it and I went to sleep.

haiz -.- lazy again. WHY IS JOLENE SOOOOOOOO LAZY!!!!!!!!!!!!! -ANGRY- -STRESSED-

DON'T COME NEAR ME OR I WILL EAT YOU!

Saw her blog.

Sometimes, I really feel that the person you talking about is me.

I don't know why.

If it's true, just write out the name or let me know.

You write until like that, if people think the person is him or herself, how will the person feel?

Like what am I doing now, I'm guessing and thinking what have I done wrong to you.

Maybe, I really don't know how to treat friends well.

So, since form one, everytime anything happened, sure I was involved in it.

Maybe this is really my problem, really pray hard to God that He will help me to change myself.

I appreciate you as a friend too, for sure I don't want to lose such a good friend, but you write until like that, people who knows also will know who is that lo.

You are close with how many friends in school.............. haiz. . .

I'm praying very hard now, to control my feelings.

I'm going to get crazy soon I know.

So, better DON'T COME NEAR ME!

homework, I LOVE YOU (:

Confused & stressed

As stated in my title, yea Jolene is very very very stressed.

My homework never ends! I will never finish my homework!!!!!!!!

I am very stressed now!

I just don't understand why others can finish their homework, but Jolene cannot!!! WHY?

BECAUSE JOLENE IS GETTING LAZIER AND LAZIER!!!!

I don't know what nonsense I'm doing.

I tried I really tried ar to do my homework but why it still ended up like that?

The number of homework to be completed will not decrease ):

List of homework

1. Bm (essay-jiran)

2. Add- maths

3. Literature

4. Directed Writing

5. Continuous writing

6. Chemistry- notes

7. Chemistry- exercise

8. Est

9. Bm- komsas

10. Sejarah- nota

11. Sejarah- latihan and pembetulan

12. Biology- notes

13. Moral

14. Lisan

15. Oral

16. Maths

Who will have so much homework like me?

I'm just lazy.

Why am I here?

Because I got nobody to talk to.

I will go crazy soon. ):

Which to do first? you tell me ):

Stressed girl ...

Pain.

Yesterday, suddenly got stomachache again.

It is not the same pain I had last time la, now I can't differentiate already how is the pain -.-

You think I like the pain so much?

I like to take medicine so much?

I like to make you worried?

---------------------------------------------------

You just don't know.

Yea, it's my own body, if I don't take care of myself, I'm suffering on my own.

So, you know how suffering is it?

You know how is the pain?

You don't know!

Yet, you still want to scold me in front of others.

You think I like to get scolding?

It's you yourself who said that taking too much medicine is bad for my health.

I avoided and I cut down.

I take that day when the pain comes, then when the pain goes off I stop la.

You siad I'm giving excuses.

Again, my fault!

I take also wrong, don't take also wrong.

It's just whatever I did, all wrong!

What should I do to make you satisfied?

Overall, if the stones are still there, I'm the one who will go for operation.

You think only you are worried, I myself don't feel scared at all? Going for an operation? ):

Had urine test, the doctor said the blood is still there, moderate level.

More than usual.

ph level only 5 which is very acidic.

Conclusion, take medicine again la.

After one week, have to return to the clinic again for the urine test.

If it still doesn't clear, then will have to go to the hospital for x-ray or ultra scan, yea something lik that.

Now, everything can't drink except plain water.

Well done Jolene. ): I HATE WATER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You just don't know how much I hate it, but I have to drink too right. Yea, take that as a YES!

NO MORE GASSY DRINKS, BOX DRINKS WHATEVER DRINKS FOR JOLENE.

YA, I'M ABNORMAL AS YOU SAID.

I CAN'T BE LIKE NORMAL PEOPLE, WHAT ALSO I CAN'T EAT OR DRINK.

FOREVER AND EVER!

Satisfied?

- angry - that you scold me in front of others! Never think of my feelings! I know you are worried for me, you think I purposely invite the pain to come? or invite the stones to come?

Ya, to you I'm always stubborn, not matured, don't know how to take care of myself, messy, lazy!

I do what also useless de la!

a new Jolene.

Just came back after dinner.
Just now went to Miss Xuewah's palace. Then, went to snap photos for moral project lo.

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no electricity -.- so now 11.49, let's continue.

Okay, damn funny snapping weird photos.

First, we must snap the photo of the RUBBISH,

then snap the person picking the rubbish,

lastly the person throwing the rubbish into the dustbin.

Teacher said, we must not just go and snap photos for the project, but we must do it sincerely~

SAYANGI ALAM SEKITAR.

WOW~~~

So at first, I reached xuewah's house and guess what was she doing?

Sleeping like a pig there~~~ hugging her momo. she has one too. haha

then, started to do homework for one minute and she switched on the tv.

GOT DISTRACTED AS USUAL.

Joined her for the show, got addicted and can't stop. haha

Mumu sms me, asking me to go tomorrow, but tomorrow got tuition ar. Sorry mumu.

About 6pm, we finally decided to go to the park.

): my show, last episode. she doen't want to let me finish it. B. A. D.

We went to the park, and only today I know there is a new park there. -.-''

Okay, it's been a long time since I last been there, so you can't blame me wat.

Walked one round while waiting daven to come,

saw Mr. L and his friend.

We finally started snapping those weird and funny photos.

What is the purpose of snapping the photos huh?

To show or to prove that we love our environment?

It's like acting -.-

I think those people there just now should be wondering what were we doing. haha.

At last, our Mr. Daven reached.

After snapping all the photos, we walked back to xuewah's house.

My mum reached just after we reached home, good timing huh. (:

Didn't have time to change and went straight for dinner.

Shared with my mum about the burden which I let go, I mean finally I let go.

Wow, God loves me a lot :D Nobody can deny that.

Luckily, my lovely mum was not angry after she knew what happened.

Anyway, everything has come to an end. Don't think anymore :D

That's all I guess for today.

I managed to finish one homework in xuewah's house.

At least I did something. Now, once I switch on my computer, then non- stop le -.-

Oh ya, I forgot to watch badminton semi- final ar!!!! Arrghhh ): I overslept!!!!! Fortunately, kkk and tbh won, chongwei won too. Tomorrow will be all malaysians men doubles final :D

I really hope you understand la, haiyo.

There are things really can't explain properly de, what you want me to do wor?

I already let go one, I don't want to start again.

Relationship won't last long, friends will last forever leh.

Don't say sorry anymore.

Thanks for your cooperation. haha ><

Fuichi, be tough!!!

That's all. niightnight (:

GLAD

Do you know how happy am I now?

WOW.... ~ hehe.

I'm glad that God listened my prayer, He knows what is happening, He knows what is bothering me. And, He solved it for me.

Praise Lord!!!!!!

I'm glad that we are still friends :D

Luckily this time God keep reminding me that I shouldn't act without thinking, shouldn't think negatively.

WOW. I HAVE AN AMAZING GOD. THANK GOD. :D

发奋图强- day.

Wahahaha, jolene 发奋图强 wants to be hardworking le!

My friends all look down on me huh, say I won't do my homework and I will sleep in the afternoon.

Hello, I finished my bm. Although it is not much I know, isn't it a good start for me? haha.

I can't take it anymore so I slept and 6.15 and woke up at 6.45pm. Wow, first time I really took a SHORT nap. hehehe.

Forgot to call wailing ar, to prove that I was doing homework!

Then, read my lovely xuewah's blog and prepared for bk class.

Had a great bk class. Okay, what is bk? bible knowledge~

To you, I asked you before some questions right? see, God really loves me. He speaks to me through Uncle Sai Kee again. Wow, I have a great God who knows me the most and loves me the most! Praise Lord.

And, really praise the Lord that I am able to calm myself now, trying to let go the burden in my heart.

I feel much more relived now. Thank you, Lord.

Well, after the class, I reached home and immediately I continued on my homework.

Seeee. Jolene doesn't want to be lazy anymore! Not for today only, tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow will be more and more hardworking! Give some support la! haha.

I finished est homework FINALLY. Now, I am blogging after this I still need to paste the ''whole stack'' of papers in my book. -.-

Nothing much for today.

What has been past, I don't wish to talk about it anymore.

Just to let you know, we still treat you as a friend. Don't spoile the relationship. Hmm, I chose to go yesterday is an answer for you that I still appreciate you as my friend.

I admit I can't bear to see the comment in your blog, I even left a comment there.

I think the person realised it even after I deleted mine, the person's one gone too. Now, I apologised. I'm sorry to that person. My words maybe too harsh just now. Hope you see this (:

written by,

Jolene

SAD

Today, I didn't go to school because I was suffering from the back pain again.

So, whole day at home, sleep also can feel the pain, have to rely on medicines again. This is what I don't like. Mummy is worried. I don't want her to be worried anymore ):

I didn't go to school, but almost all the teachers didn't enter class. haha =.=

This is specially to you, my friend.

I didn't actually want to write this out, but since you did it, I want you to know something.

I got very hurt with all the words from your blog, every single word hurt me deeply. I really feel sad with what you have written, and how you feel now.

We can be considered as best friends, even if you don't, I treat you as my best best friend.

Today is your birthday, okay maybe it was yesterday. All of us are happy and we just wanted to celebrate with you, understand? We are happy for you, we wanted to celebrate with you sincerely.

What's the meaning of自己爽？If that is not your birthday, we don't need to invite you out, and treat you a meal right? If we really want to be happy just for ourselves, we don't need to call you out.

Okay, finally you came. And guess what you did? We were happy that you came, I mean at least you came. But, you gave us that reaction that you said you didn't know why we called you out. I mean, it's your bithday, right?

See us eating and just happy on our own? Do you expect us to actually wait until the minute you come? And just to tell us that you have already eaten? Okay, if you don't want come, please just tell us that you don't want to come, you don't want to celebrate, you don't want to see us.

You said you will come. So, we were willing to wait. Why didn't we change place? Where should we go? You said you will come, and what time you came? You ate, but we didn't you know?

We prepared the cake for you. You just didn't care, didn't even bother to have a look on the cake. Come on, if that was like what you said, we bought a cake just to make a fool in front of you? What's the purpose of buying the cake? It's your birthday my friend. I mean, even if you don't like the present or don't like the arrangement or don't like us, should you show us the attitude like that? If we don't treat you as our friend, we won't do so many things k.

We were so surprised that you actually reacted like that.

We suspected that something must have happened.

We just ignored everything and tried our best to cheer you up, to make you happy?

At last, it turns out like that?

It came all out in your blog.

I'm not trying to gain anything from anyone or trying to upset you or even to say how good we are. I'm not trying to upset you by writing this out. I just hope you to really understand. I am sure we are not angry for what you did to us, we are just sad that you don't show any appreciation to what we did.

I know you have things to do. You said you would come, so we waited.

I'm not feeling well, I went because you are my friend, and it's your birthday.

I know I didn't show up for the other one because of the same reason, so I didn't want to upset you again.

I didn't know what we did actually make you upset and unhappy.

I really hope to let you know that, please don't say until like that.

We were not doing all those things for ourselves, we were doing for you.

Even if you are upset of something else or you just don't feel like celebrating with us, okay now it's over.

I will just be more careful next time, I don't want any of my friends to be unhappy like that, especially on her birthday some more.

Everything is over now, I hope you are okay after this.

Happy Birthday.

I thought I was angry, but I was actually very sad. Ya, I never expect things to be like that.

I don't want to lose a friend again. I'm sorry if I really made you that angry or unhappy. Just sorry.

I can truely understand the feeling of getting hurt, getting hurt by someone you love the most and someone who is your best friend.

So, don't ever ever try to hurt someone.

Even you may think what you did was right, but you may simply hurt her/he in a way which you don't know how you did it..

Will just pray for you,

I'm sorry.

sad

What am I doing? Can anyone please tell me?

I cried for the whole night, whole morning in school just because of you.

Yea, I can't accept being left by you. It hurts.

I said already I don't want to face the problem, all of you ask me to face it.

Guess what now?

I'm suffering like hell.

When I face it, only I realised you have left me long ago. I'm like nothing to you, and you just leave me.

We are like陌生人，don't know each other anymore. What can I do?

I know, I cry no use. You won't care.

I do what also useless.

I just can't face the problem alone.

I CANNOT, UNDERSTAND?

Be strong be tough? Is it so easy to do so?

Please, you never know it until you really get hurt from someone.

Regret not listening to advices.

See..... what is happening now?

Everything is affected! I can't do anything now.

I just know to cry and cry and cry. HATE IT.

When I think of you, I will cry.

I will never forget you I guess, I will just suffer like that.

Ya, I told you we are best friends, what was I doing when I said that?

I was crying like mad, until my eyes become swollen.

YOU BREAK MY HEART. YOU SERIOUSLY DID IT.

HATE.

Today, I woke up early because four of us were told to take part in the Olimpiad Maths Competition.

Seriously, we don't know anything about it. The teacher just gave us a set of past-year questions and didn't even go through the questions with us.

So, we ended up there nothing. I don't know about the others, but for myself, I just know to do one question out of nine. It was really difficult for me. They told me to just ''bang'' anything out, but I don't even understand the questions, don't even know what were they about, how to ''bang''?

My friends did ''bang'' except for me. I left it blank for section b. I just left them blank.

I never left blanks before in past exams, but since form four, I started doing that.

Whenever I can't do, I just lost. I will get very disappointed and start to dream.

Like today, I spent almost all the time dreaming inside the hall, was sleepy and tired, wasted my tiem -.-

We expected more people taking part, but when we reached there, whole school was empty. No one, no cars. Then, on the notice board, written there only 3 schools taking part, SMK Jerantut, SMK Datuk Bahaman and our school. The two other schools sent three four teams. At the end, I realised that many of them were like me dreaming in the hall. Haha. Who will know how to do? The questions were so diffcult, and we are all form four's...

After the two and a half hours torturing, we went back to school.

Well, our teacher drove so ... dangerously? haha. She likes to talk to herself too. Pity our Mr. Tau Ting Yong, also known as Ting Ting, didn't know how to asnwer her, and her driving made him headache and wanted to vomit. Haha.

After that, we decided to go to old town for lunch actually. So, from back gate, we went to bubbles first, then to the store to buy the kaya puff, or kaya balls? what is it called ar? Then, to kfc to buy my lovely potato wedges. But, the air cond there was so nice, so we ended up in kfc. We ordered and I shared with jiayiee. The spicy chicken, the new one was so spicy, we both ate until almost cried -.- That tingting laughing at us, later he kena too. haha.

Then, went back home liao loh. Guess what I did?

Yea,

SLEEPING.

So tired! So I was so glad when Jiayiee told me her dad was not in at 5 something, so we can't go to the park to take photos as we planned. I was half- asleep actually when I reply her messages, and jielian's one too. If next time, my message is short and weird, you will know what am I doing k... haha. Continue sleeping until 7pm. Started from 4pm. WOW.

Went downstairs, saw kookienkiet and tanboonheong playing against fuhaifeng and caiyun. This time the match was not funny already. Haha, no tricks done by them. Saw malaysia won first sett but lose second set. ): No mood to watch after that, because he was as usual complaining. I felt very unhappy, why did he become like this? He is having headache, only he alone not well? He is not well all the time. Okay, why are you complaining since you are not willing to help too? Everytime, you made all of us feel unhappy. Everytime, you just command us to do this and that. And, what are you doing all the time? Just lie there and watch tv. Now, I can see the difference before and after. I am talking the truth. After so many incidents, I really can see how great our God is. God can really change a person completely. I regret, I really regretted.

Last time, when you first accepted Lord, you changed. I know you changed. You went to church, you accepted people and you shared with others. I regretted, I should hold on you that time. God was working that time, but I didn't realise. I just let go the chance. I should have supported you fully in God's faith.

Now, you rejected. I don't know why you chose to turn away from God. I am not a 3 year-old child anymore. Even when I was 3, I know what's happening in my family. Since then, you tried to live on your own. You tried to control everyone. Thinking God is nothing. Don't allow us to go to church, don't allow this and that. Hey, do you remember? God helps you to find the job you know? You should thank Him, instead what you have done? I feel very unhappy everyday, sometimes I don't even feel to talk to you.

Please, I really pray and hope that you will come back to Lord, and to be saved. Satan is controlling you. I remember when you accepted Jesus, you don't have so much health problems. As you said, God is with you. So, He saved you. Be thankful. I feel very miserable sometimes, especailly when quarrels are all around, homework, competitions, results.... all come together. I really can't handle, so please.. Stop it la. I will do what I have to do. Please don't command me to do this and that. I got enough things to be worried of.

I still remember that incident, which happened long ago. I was so wrong that time, but sometimes when I think back, what I did is actually correct too, to express my feelings. I was so disobedient that time, even now if you read this post, you will think why am I talking in such a way. But, it's just the truth. I'm not happy.

Please pray together with me too, hope that God will touch his heart again. Please change him. And, whenever I have a problem with him, please help me to control myself, help me to respect him and be patient. Overall, I should respect him actually.

Please don't hurt me anymore. All of you. I am not as tough as you think. Don't tell me you love me this moment and later say you scared to hurt me, so you leave me. Please DON'T. I know actually what are you thinking, I know all about it. It's just the problem of accepting or not accepting it. So, I chose to accept in such a way. I may not be able to let go, but now I just hope to forget it. Now onwards, don't tell me you love me if you don't. It hurts in the end. I shouldn't, I really shouldn't involved in it. I have done so many sins because of this problem.

For friends, please don't be with me at this moment, and when problems appear, you leave me. Or pretending to be good with me. Please DON'T. It hurts me. Maybe to you, it's nothing. But to the one you have hurt, it's a BIG BIG thing.

It's a sensitive post today.

I never write like this before I guess.

Maybe all these problems will make a little girl be tougher.

Remember, don't say you love others if you don't mean so and don't be friends with others just for fun and avoid pretending in front of others.

I'm glad that I have a group of sincere friends. Do I? Yea, maybe.

I really need to pray that I can control my feelings, sometimes I know you all will feel bad with my attitude. I will change, I promise.

Sincerely from me,

10.31pm

tired.

Tomorrow going for the quiz.

Well, wish me good luck.

Wish that at least I know to do one of them -.-

Not feeling well now, getting sick soon? Headache.

Sleeping already. Nightnight.

don't know what's your mood.

you are tired, I'm tired too. This is what you told me.

moody? down?

recently hair style, not much different, right? comments needed!
my poor marks~
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I always love myself.

As usual went to school today.

Gone through my add- maths paper, realised how careless I was. Really make me so angry with myself.

What was I doing? Was I dreaming during exam?

All the careless mistakes in section one. Or else I would score for it.

For section b, the questions on function, I really have to work on it.

For the index one, AGAIN. I don't know what happened. Was I blind????

- ANGRY - I'm angry for doing such stupid mistakes which cause me losing 5 marks and even more. I just give my marks like that. OH MY GOODNESS.

So, serves me right now. Do all the corrections!

We have to do for every subjects. SERVES ME RIGHT. -.-

I'm down for no reason.

Now, I really don't feel to talk to both of you. very 反感了。

真的不懂怎么面对你们。很辛苦的。你怎样对我，我也没反应了。至于你，不要对我那么好啦！！！ haiz..

都说不要令我那么难做了咯。就是说不听！

I'm tired, leave me alone.

我只要把书读好啦，要做心理医生！哈哈，说到这个就好笑。竟然会有这样的愿望，也忘了是从几时开始的。我妈说我自己都不平衡了，等下医不好人，自己也一起疯了。我的自愿leh, 竟然可以这样说我的。哈哈。说到这里，看了仁心解码后，更想做心理医生了。哈哈。看律师的戏就想做律师，可是不好leh。要帮坏人的，那里可以噢？做医生？不要，我怕血。如果心理医生也需要先做普通医生，那免了。那做什么好？想过设计师，但没艺术天分-.- 那做什么好啦？等妈养我:D 顺其自然吧！

怎么说到这里了？还写起华语来。说会刚才，我真的要发奋图强了啦，要就支持我，不然就离我远远去！will study and get back to the top, that's my aim. I will achive my goal for the coming monthly test and also final exam.

问题是本人的懒惰。怎么办？

超多功课！！！！

每天都超累的，根本就没心情理气他事，更没力气和他吵了！这是件好事吧！在吵下去也没用，烦死人！

所以，不要来惹我。处于在烦恼状态。

- simple me -

Have been told that the national science and maths quiz is going to be held in Jerantut this Saturday. So, jiayiee, jinyong, raveena and me are going to SMK Jerantut.
Actually, we don't really know what quiz is it. We just know the questions are very difficult -.-
What did I get for add maths? 57 leh, still go take part this thing -.- regretted. Just taking part for the sijil (:

Not much for today.
As usual, school is boring.
Homework more and more, and I just can't finish it.
Especially at night, what am I doing? Blogging now. Will do later then sleep late, tomorrow tired.
THAT'S JOLENE.

As for school, my mum gave me a very nice hope. And at last, it turned out the other way. I'm actually talking about my results. 不伤心是假的！让我一场欢喜一场空了！哈哈，没关系啦，也过去了，就这样继续安慰着自己吧。其实，她拿到也是应得的！因为她A1比较多。她付出的肯定也不会比自己少！至少还有第二啊，很好了！要知足：D
所以，现在开始，懒惰，请你离开我！我要发奋图强！哈哈。每天和雪华都这样说。我会做到的，放心。

Today, I read a blog. A girl's blog. A girl whom I don't really know, just know who is she and her name.
Well, when I read, really touched by it. And, I realised as though she was writing out my feelings. Haha. Really same as me. Almost 99%. Really feel like getting to know her better :D haha. I love girls more huh.... Interested in cute, pretty, charming girls :D wow~

results

I got almost all the marks for every subject already, except for bm, est and moral. 

So, my results is........

Chinese- 75 A2

English- 89 A1

Maths- 87 A1

Sejarah- 70 A2

Add- maths- 57 C5

Biology- 77 A2

Chemistry- 73 A2

Physics- 71 or 73 ?? A2

Accounts- 80 A1

I actually got 3 A1's ar. Now only I realised. Haha. Blur Jolene. 

So, as I said, I will work harder for the next test. 

Wait for me to come back on top :D  now, tired of doing corrections ):

My dear friends, why don't you all post about your results too. Want to know but must ask one by one -.-''

Tomorrow is Jingye's birthday :D 

not a good day.

Today, I received all my results, can't say it's all, because I just know my grades and some I haven't get the paper. 

Overall, it's BAD. From 10 A1's 2A2's to ................   2A1 9A2 1C5 

Yea, you are not wrong. You didn't see wrongly, I got C5. ): And, guess what is it?

ADDITIONAL MATHS. 

Wowwowwow. 

I didn't expect that far............ 

Really quite disappointed. But, it was just a moment. After that, I was okay. 

Even just now during tuition, ya I did compare with others for my results. 

In the same time, I know they are much more better than me all the time, since primary school. 

So, it's normal and I have prepared myself before that to hear them getting many A1's.

As expected, they did. Well done, friends :D

I felt happy for them. 

That moment when I was asking around, yea I did said, ''walao, my results so bad, really feel ashamed'' I even asked them not to say too loud about my results. 

But, in my heart I actually feel nothing. 

I was even thankful to God you know, that I still can get A's. 

Although I didn't get all A1's, it's okay. 

I tried my best, and success depends on God, I always remind myself. 

So, I know now. My add maths is still very weak, I need to really work very hard for it. 

Who can offer to teach me huh? haha. 

I seriously need someone's help. 

Teaching me, you need lots of patient. Seriously. 

I learnt not to be sad over things that can't be changed, what for being disappointed? 

Don't cry over spilt milk. 

I rather use the time to be more hardworking, and really look into the weak parts. 

Yes, I should do that now! I will do better next time!!! :D 

Oh God, please take away my laziness. -.-

I am lazier and lazier ):

WAKE UP, WAKE UP! NOW IT'S NOT THE TIME FOR YOU TO ENJOY YA!!

I haven't even upload the photos which I took in malacca. -.- Shall wait for agnes's ones, and upload all together. 

back to school

Just came back from malacca, the church camp.

It was a combined church camp, both the english and chinese sites. The theme was A Life of Blessing. 

Well, overall, it was okay. Pastor Ime was cute, at least the sessions was not as bored as the year when we went to kl. He shared lots of his personal experiences which were very interesting. He has three daughters with very special names huh, Precious, Favour and Angel.

However, the camp is more for couples, I mean daddy and mummy or those who are just married. It seemed quite not related to the youth, as it was more on how to raise a family or what should a daddy and mummy do. 

As for the part of children, he didn't really talk much on it. 

Anyway, I enjoyed it with my family. 

Especially for the last session we attended yesterday. The church camp was actually until tomorrow, but we came back early because school reopens tomorrow. ):

The last session. Before the session, Pastor Ime asked each husband and wife to prepare a flower. So, most of them did that. And during the ending for the lesson, he asked them to give the flower to each other, and that's the time for the husband and wife, daddy and mummy to spend time with each other. He asked them to apologise to each other, call each other sweet sweet names like sugar baby, honey and so on. Haha. It was funny. But, it was really a sweet moment that time for the parents. I can feel their joy, their happiness on their face. Everyone of them was smilling sweetly, really a sweet moment :D I wish my parents were like that too. But, my daddy was not there. Anyway, my mummy has me :D 

Later it was the prayer session. Each family had to pray together with the bible. Celeste's daddy and mummy didn't attend, while my daddy was not around. So, no daddy was present. We prayed. I prayed. I prayed a lot for my family and myself, for my church and my friends. I told God I will continue praying like that. Before this, my prayer was just a short and simple one. I often don't know what to pray. Now, I know. It's like talking to God, my Father. I did many wrong things, I didn't even dare to pray to God before this. But, I realised, if I don't pray, I don't repent, I will not be saved just like what Pastor Imen said. After praying, I felt very relax as though there was no burden anymore. It's like all the bad things have left me. Yes, I don't want you anymore. Stressed, worried, sickness, hatred, disappointment, fear....... LEAVE ME. 

I LOVE YOU LORD. Amen.

Just like what Pastor Ime said, 醒过来，醒过来，祷告，祷告！！！ 

PRAY PRAY PRAY!!!

School is starting tomorrow. Tired ):

And, I'm not prepared at all. I haven't even finish my homework. My scripts....... And, I didn't do my revision as I planned to do so. Everything was out of my plan! 

So, that's all for now. :D

malacca church camp

Wow, tomorrow going back to Malaysia.

Going to malacca church camp. Hehe.

We are staying at bayview hotel. Excited :D:D

Want to learn more about Jesus, our God. 

Today went for shopping. 

Jolene is such a good girl, bought only one shirt for this trip. Haha! 

We went to fareast and bishan :D enjoyed.

So, going to sleep early tonight after packing.

nightnight.

hair

As a link to my title, yea, i cut my hair and did rebonding. wow.
A different me i guess.
But, most of them said no changes.


I look funny, I know.
relax huh, I want my hair to be longer, longer and longer.
Then, I will perm it.
hehe :D

At first, he suggested to perm my hair for a change, but I dare not. haha.
So, rebond it. Now, not long not short.
Will take photos when I feel ok with it. haha.
Sat at the shop for so long, how many hours? didn't count.
He really looks like kookienkiet :D
Ended up back pain again.
My mum said I really look like an old aunty, here pain there pain. Many problems -.-

Reach home at about 5.
Aunty swee vien cooked my favourite honey chicken wings.
Wow, I ate 6 I think :D super niceeeeeeee! thanks :D
Then, chit chat with selene. Told her my story, sorry, I can't help u. You have to make your own decision, but I'm sure you can with God's help. Pray for you (:

Did I mention I went to singapore science centre yesterday?
It's super sien -.- really.
Not as fun as we went when we were still small. Haha. At least in the pictures, we look happy.
went to watch the what sea monsters show. Make my neck pain, back pain, head pain. Headache and feel to vomit. Was not feeling well the whole day huh. Super sien. -.-

Singapore

Jolene reached singapore safely. 

But, having flu. ): 

Just feel like sleeping............

well, nightnight.

Friday

Today is lovely friday.
Yesterday, set alarm clock in my phone at 7am because I need to go to school at 10am for pidato trainning.
I slept at about 2 something and ya the alarm clock rang but I just ignored and it kept ringing and ringing until 9 o'clock. I supposed to wake up and actually memorise my text but I was just too tired. Haha. pigging~
So, went to school at 9.45 like that. The forum group was there and I saw both my teachers too.
Started training. Panicked and I forgot my text again and again.
You know the feelings? Everyone was starring at you with their weird eyes. Some don't even bother to listen to you.
Hey what's the problem? I know you all are mxxxxx. I'm not. So? You make me doubt myself. I won the competition is it really because I was that good or because............ ? you know
At last, I was left to be alone to memorize my text again AS USUAL. Ya, they reached the national level, so what am I? I'm just at the state level, and I don't have the chance to win right to you all? ... speechless
I calmed myself and try hard to memorize the script. Again and again I did. Two hours I spent in school just to see you all joking away, having fun while practicing and I was alone at the corner. How do I feel that time? You all didn't bother to teach me too.


Jolene is acting sensitively again, ya I know.


I can never have peace in my life ): that's me.
Well, 7 more topics for me to do. And, my homework. To be honest, I haven't touch or write a single word. Well done, Jolene.
Oh ya, tomorrow I'm leaving for Singapore.
After that, I'm travelling to Malacca again on friday if I'm not mistaken for a church camp. I really hope that I will gain my faith again. I feel that I'm lost now -.- This year, many relatives are going and I'm very happy about that. However, sixth aunt is not going because she is scared of the sickness in malacca. She will have a baby boy soon :D


I will miss you huh.
But, I will bring my laptop there. Just don't know they got wireless or not. If not will be quite convenient if I keep on using their internet. Because once I switch on my computer, I'm addicted to it. -.-
If I can't use the internet in singapore, I will be updating my blog one week later.
So, MAKE SURE YOU MISS ME. YA, I MEAN YOU, WHO ARE LOOKING AT THIS. DON'T DOUBT :D

Having flu I think ):
Hope it will be ok by tomorrow.
I'm excited to see my lovely selene, celeste, jean, all yiyi and ... coco, hope she doesn't follow and bite me this time -.-

That's all for today.
I'm going to pack my bag. ( Last minute)
Tomorrow will be leaving early in the morning so that it won't jam in jb.

Miss ya,
Jolene

Malacca trip- 2nd day.

Going to continue on the second day. As yesterday was too tired to write. hehe


Second day- Wednesday.


It was the last day of the trip. I seriously felt not enough la, we want to stay there for another few days! I set the alarm clock at 7am, because we didn't know the actual time to wake up. So, our phones's alarm clock just keep ringing and ringing. Finally, jiayiee woke up and went to ask what time we need to get ready. They said 8.30 we were going out. So, we woke up immediately because it was already 8.00! Oh please, we didn't want to be late AGAIN. Jiayiee went to wash up and I went to knock on my mum's door. Know what? Teacher shanti opened the door and I realised our three teachers were actually not awake yet. I asked her, she said the bus would be there before 10 -.- Rushed like mad for nothing. We took our own sweet time to wash up, bathe and pack our things as were going to check out straight after that. Then, we went for breakfast. As we were not close with the boys anymore, we didn't eat together. We went to Toast n Toast, recommended by raveena and muhillan. I ate mee siam, while they ate nasi lemak. The food was okay. Daven sms me and I told him where we were. The guys came, but only daven sat with us. Okay fine.


Later, the bus came and we left Johan Hotel. Well, I think I forgot to mention the hotel we stayed in. Daven sat with me in the bus and we were ok. And the same with jooguan. Everything started to be okay I guess? Then, we went to Perigi Hang Tuah. Was it the correct name? I think so, haha. Nothing interesting there. -.- Ya, just read some history about the well and Hang Tuah. There were actually some rumah tradisional there. I wanted to visit, same to my mum. But, all of them boarded the bus and nobody was intrested. Plus the weather was so hot! It made me no mood to go -.- Headache on and off ):


Finally, we travelled to the A' Famosa Water World. Wow wow! That's the main objective of having the trip to Malacca. All of us were excited!!! The bus stopped us at the entrance, and something funny happened as Teacher Shanti went to get our tickets. A guy dressed like a cowboy holding an axe, not a real one was standing at the entrace. Xuewah was so scared but the guy seemed to know about it and he started to come close to her. She was frightened and ran away. My mum started telling cikgu rusmiah about my story in Genting. I remembered once I cried badly when I saw the person dressed like a ghost. LOL. I didn't even dare to go near the place anymore. haha. SO, she thought I would cry when I saw the man. -.-


After that, we entered the water world. Saw a big elephant and xuewah was scared again. haha. Wowwow, finally we saw the water!!! haha. Excited! Immediately changed our clothes, put THOUSAND layers of sun block and we went to play. The weather was hot as usual, but we were excited. We went to play the slides :D:D:D I got to play 3 or 4 only I guess? Because there was one which was extreamly scary to me. I know they enjoyed it. :D But to me, I almost drown. haha. It was a lying on the slide one without the tube, the water was splashing away and entered my nose. Scary ): When I finally got down, we knocked onto each other because there were too many people together -.- I hurt my leg and since then I didn't play the slides. Anyway, my friends enjoyed themselves :D


About 4 something I stopped playing, because I started to feel bored and didn't know what to do. So, I went to bathe with wailing and cian rhu as they were not feeling well too. After bathing, went with daven to the shops. WOW. I knew there's a shop that offered us to take photo with a big yellow snake if we spent more than 10 ringgit, my mum told me before I went. When I reached the shop, I saw someone holding a yellow thing in front of the shop. Then only I realised was the snake!! I shouted and everyone was looking at me -.- haha. They told me not to be scared because they had taken out the snake's teeth. But, taking photo with a SNAKE is a NONO for Jolene. Haha. Walked around the shop, saw many cute cute things around. Even the couple t- shirts. Cute :D At last, bought a black cap for dad and a brown one for myself. Didn't get to buy the shirt as they were in pairs ): Saw orang utan, daven's friend before we left. ^^

After waterworld, the bus came at 5 something. And, there goes our malacca trip. We travelled back to temerloh. In between the journey, we stopped for dinner, and forgot all about the burgers which I bought from the water world. So, it ended up for my dad. hehe. The coming back journey was quite short to me. Maybe everyone was excited and high after the waterworld. Just a few of my friends were sleeping. The singing gang which includes xuewah, jiayiee and cian rhu were singing all the way. HAha. However, xuewah was not feeling well because the water entered her ears and she couldn't hear clearly. Anyway, everyone was happy, especially me. (:



Photos of Malacca trip with my lovely friends~



WOw! Finally I finished uploading the photos. :D Overall, it was a happy and wonderful trip. I love this trip a lot although there were many problems, you will know why, do you? However, I was quite over over because I kept taking panadols to avoid my headache -.- Finally, my panadols were taken by someone and forgot to give back to me. The bus shaked until overover ar, made me headache and when I reached home, whole body aching ): Wonderful trip, I love to be with you all :D




- Happiness with friends.
- Our friendship grows.
- The wonderful moment with each other.
- A keychain and a necklace
- :D


Those are what I got from the trip :D
Well, that's all. nightnight.