Headache + boring day

Well, I'm having headache now, feeling to vomit. WHy?
Didn't post yesterday, mostly because I was playing game and I forgot.
Went to kfc was a wrong decision I guess? Haha. But I don't wish to talk about that anymore.

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Saturday, what did I do?
I woke up and went for breakfast at my favourite 干捞面stall. I ate 老鼠粉，my favourite!!!
Then, reached home and slept again.
Holidays, I feel bored during holidays although it is relaxing.
After that, xuewah fetch me and we went to muhillan's party. Happy birthday muhillan. It's too late. haha.
Not much for saturday.

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TODAY.
I don't know what's my problem.
I didn't go for worship service and also yp.
speechless

my head is breaking soon, I better stop here first.
To be continue........

HOLIDAYS

Today actually is a school day, but none of my friends went I think, to take tasawur islam?
So, I spend the whole morning to sleep.
Didn't have a good sleep for three weeks ar!
THREE WEEKS SUFFERING, FINALLY IT'S OVER.
Wow, I'm proud of myself, you know? haha
My room was in a mess for three weeks, unfortunately I forgot to take the pictures.
It was even worse than the time when I took pmr, which my mum snapped some photos and showed to my relatives, how wonderful my room was.
It was a miserable three weeks, that I don't even have place to walk and sleep.
And, why am I proud of myself?
Because I spent one and a half hour ONLY to clear the mess, and my lovely bedroom turned back to its normal. WOW~
I think that was the first time I cleared my things straight after the exam! Surprisingly~

Then, went out with kt friends, daven, xuewah, jooguan, jiayiee and jinyong to pizza. haha, AGAIN.
The service was worse than before, as if we were not paying for their service charge and tax?
First, ask for menu. What's the response? Today the new pizza is out of order. -.- There was another time even worse which I went with my family, they told me only two choices of pizza for that day and it was not late midnight, it was in the afternoon!
Okay nvm, we asked for pepper I think?
KIND mxxxx waitress: you can't see my hands are full? can't you wait? (with a impolite face)
Oh my goodness, we were just telling you we need it, okay?
That's why we always anti the place, yet someone suggested and she didn't even appear. Good huh~
When we first sat down, we even thought of doing the same thing we did last time, haha...
Which is stand up, and walk out of the place which is a very rude attitude I knew.
But, last time we were really angry. Waited for so long and we were still treated like invisible?
Whole group of friends there, two tables I think? They couldn't see us? Asked to order for so long yet we are still like invisible, so okay fine. byebye.

Headed to the store after dinner. Not full at all, when I reached home I even got gastric -.- haha.
Well, walking around with no ideas on what to buy for muhillan.
So, someone suggested that we go to bubble.
Stayed there don't know for how long~
Finally, we chose something cute and he like! haha. But it's a bit..... too cute for boys? haha

His present==> mrbean bear and sponge bob from the boys
yuan sms with sxx mxx
my favourite drink

Tonight going out with abs friends to kfc (:
Wowwow~ haha. excited?
I guess so, love hanging out with friends.

Exam over

After suffering for three weeks,

finally it's over.

Well it's over too for my results.

Just wait and see.

ABNORMAL.

Yea, I think I'm quite abnormal now. 

What did I do yesterday?

I slept for only two hours and spend the time to study for biology. 

I'm scared, after chemistry paper, I am really scared now. 

I read and read for biology but still today when I got the paper I got panic again and I forgot almost all of it again. ):

I just couldn't recall back anything.

What is happening to me actually? 

What is the point reading but forgetting it too when I sit for the exam. Haiz!

Again, stupid me made stupid mistakes again in paper three. And, because of my stupid brain, I lost 6 marks for the paper three which I should score for it. Ohh my goodness~ How am I going to get A1?

Maybe.... 

I'm distracted by something else.... 

I tried very hard not to think just finish the exam will be fine. 

But, my brain not seems to function as what I expected. 

Post shorter and shorter

speechless

):

Too bad, I think I'm going to failed for chemistry.

The paper two was so difficult, same goes to paper one.

I don't know what did I do. 

I never leave blanks before in exam but this time I really can't think of any answers and I just left it ): 

Few questions I did like that for paper two. Even for those I did, I don't know what did I write. I just couldn't do the paper. Haiz~

Whereas for paper one, I read through but I forgot everything. What's the point reading and forgetting also during exam, same la my moral. Haiz!

Tomorrow biology. Chemistry I confirm b or c liao or even failed also can I think. Ask me not to be sad, how can I? 

I really feel very stressed studying science ar! All subjects I can't cope with!

How am I going to sit for spm?

I chose science because of biology, but it seems too difficult for me. Haven't talk about other subjects, I really can't imagine what results I'm going to get for this mid year exam ):

EXAMS ):

Haiz~
Still having exam ar, why it never end? Because we just started. LOL.
One by one I can feel that I'm losing all my A's. ):
It's difficult for me! Is it my problem or everyone's?
Sejarah------------ the subject that I claimed I like the most become the subject I scared the most!
I got 30 correct out of 40. Expected? No, I wanted more than that. Getting 10 mistakes is very serious plus my paper two was................ I can say I answered one question confidently only. The others I was not sure. Haiz, I memorised everything but when I was sitting for the paper, I was completely blank same goes to my moral paper. 0.0
Moral----------- I used to like moral huh, but this time I seriously don't know what did I write on the paper. -.-

So, conclusion: prepare to lose first place, no more 12 A's, prepare for B's and so on..... It's a sad thing to say.

Tomorrow will be chinese and chemistry. Jia you ba^^

Well done

Although Malaysia didn't win the surdiman cup, they achived their target to reach semi final for the first time. Congrates :D

Anyway, China deserves to win the cup, they have such a strong team. 

WHY?

Finished maths paper today.
To me, it's quite difficult? For some of my friends, they said difficult but when we discussed, they didn't get wrong -.-
Haiz~ I don't know what am I going to get this time, I feel that I got many mistakes. Have to think how to explain to my lovely maths teacher ):
Yesterday's subjcets was okay. English I wrote the short story about the elocution competition.
Anyway, my mum's first reaction was '' you are so careless AGAIN in your information transfer''. Later, '' why did you write about Mathilde as the character you symphatise?''
Okay, does this mean that I'm not going to do well too?
I feel that the sejarah paper was quite easy actually, compared to the exercises I did.
I read chapter 1 and 2 only but when the questions come out, I surprisingly know to answer those which I never read, but couldn't answer for the front ones.
Very disappointed la, I think I got many mistakes too. I didn't want to count, I'm scared ):
Haiz, preparing to lose my first place to others. But, not Mxxxxx. Oppss~
Next week will be a scary week for me.
Frankly speaking, I didn't read anything yet for next week.
Jia you ba~

That's all.
To be continued...............

ONE DOWN.

Finally, finished bm papers today.
The paper 2 was okay besides for the making sentences -.- While paper one actually can be considered as very easy but I know I didn't do my very best.
The two essasy questions were easy but I didn't finish the first one in time and I tend to get panic.
I stopped half way and did the second one. Struggling on the first paragraph, couldn't decide how to start.
So, overall the second essay was not quite good for the first one, I'm satisfied with the starting but not after that.
Haiz~ I know I can do better than that! I got so much points to write but I got panic and so I didn't have enough time to actually arrange my points properly. Such a waste!

I was quite frustrated and yet after that I heard some bad things from my friends.
Oh my goodness, why were you looking at people's thing without permission?
I should毁灭‘证据’！ haha~ But, you all too sensitive la. Haiyo!
Do you think it's very easy to take part in the competition?
Not me who set the mid year question what! And for your information, I am not satisfied with my essay, I didn't do as great as you all think......
Stop being sensitive or... what word can be used to describe?
Think what you like, I don't want to waste my time on you all.
You know who you are.

Tomorrow will be english paper one and two and also sejarah paper one.
All the best for the rest of my friends! 加油！

FRIENDS

FRIENDS
Today many things happened in our class.
Early in the morning, they fought.
My reaction..... *shock* what are they doing???? OH MY GOODNESS!
Can't accept that they were fighting. I scared until feel like vomiting.
We are friends! Why must because of small things then fight? haiz!
So scary... That moment I suddenly can't recognise you all. You all are not the ones who joke and laugh with me like usual. You all are full of anger and hatred ):

After thinking back what happened this morning, I realised that I shouldn't say her like that too!
I said that they shouldn't fight. In the other way, I shouldn't get angry with her too ): 自相矛盾！
Should I apologise to her? I don't have the courage to do so. Haha. By the way, she was a bit too much also la!

Conflict conflict conflict...............
Come on, let's stop it.
Tomorrow is the first day of the nightmare.
But, I'm looking forward to it. Why? Don't know.
I'm not prepared for anything yet I'm excited. A bit crazy?

It's time to study.
Back to my book.
Novel, Terminal Tiga, Rimpa..............

EXAMS.

People start asking me why I never update my blog.
Huh... Exam, stress. It will be my same old topics for these days. So, I decided to stop.
I'm getting tired of school life, I really can't enjoy it much like what my mum suggested.
School life--> full with stress!
Examssssssssss!
Went for charles tuition. And, greatly found out that how difficult the bm paper is.
Wednesday...............

How about my pidato?
I got stuck now, I don't know what to study. For sure I can't finish studying already ):
I got no time to worry for pidato already.
Want to take the papers earlier for the sake of my pidato? HOW?
I am not PREPARED! ):

I'M STRESSSSSSED!

Sick of studying.

still with my book
can I stop studying?
Full of wordsssssssssssss!
Chapter 2. Obviously, I'm still here.

Obviously, I'm still blur.
Very happy that I finally got up at 4am today to study my lovely sejarah.
WHy is it so difficult compare to form 3 work?
It's so difficult to finish a chapter! HAiz.
Just stop a short while to post, have to continue again. Bye~

Still SICK!

Today, my mum asked me whether I want to go to school or not, surprisingly I said yes -.-
Then during physics lessons, I suddenly felt so headache and almost wanted to faint and vomit.
Everything was black and white. Asked for permission to go to toilet but actually went back to class. So, I climbed down from the forth floor then climbed up again to my class. Okay, I almost fainted because I was really having bad headache. Then, what a stupid me thought the class was locked. I went down again, this time to the staff room for my mum. When I reached there, my face as I knew was white like a sheet -.- Seriously not feeling well. Luckily after that was ok.

Now, it's raining (: The weather is soo hot that's why I love raining!!!! Oh please, my exam is coming....... So, today will be a short post only.

HOPE
my flu will be allright.
I will study hardworking-ly. -.-

SICK

Fell sick again, poor jolene.
Haiz, today from 9-3.30 I was outside for tuition, seriously tired ):
When I reached home, I slept because I was so sick. -.-
And again, I didn't touch my books again.
I wonder how am I going to do for my midyear exam.
I'm lazy and stress and blur! We are not even sure about the format and we are just going to do it blur-ly.
We were talking about the chapters which are going to be tested in our midyear exam. And yet, we realise there are many things that we don't know!
We don't know the format don't know which chapters, and some subjects the teacher even haven't finish.
GREAT. Now, all not sure. All don't know about anything. All need to memorise! We are not roborts!!!! WHO CREATED EXAMS!!!!
For sure, I can't get first for midyear. I even going to fail for some of them!
Study? Please tell me where to start!!!

JOLENE! IT'S YOUR FAULT.
YOU DIDN'T DO YOUR REVISION EVERYDAY. NOW SERVES YOU RIGHT!
WHY ARE YOU SO LAZY?

speechless................

WEDNESDAY.

Just wake up from my nap.
Slept for about one hour.
My brother is sicked, and now I think I got the flu and sore throat ):
Pleaseee don't get sick now!!!
Today got my exam time table already. Soooo long!
Haiz... We still not sure the format and we like blur blur go for exam -.- GOOD la!
So, now after dinner, doing my revision. Giving up for homework. Too bad~

Jo,
1907

STRENGTH

Today, assembly was bored as usual. -.- long and bored!
Every teachers are rushing to finish the syallabus. I'm rushing too, to catch up with them. It's difficult, but once you try and get it, you will be happy of it!
Just like chemistry, honestly I'm quite lost and getting fed up because I can't do the exercises given by my teacher. I tried to ask her to explain again and I try to catch up. Now, thank God that I can understand the part of it.
After school, went for charles tuition.
And now, I'm back home blogging. After dinner, will continue on my homework and my revision.
Pleaseeeeeeee, stop asking me whether I finish studying already or not.
It makes me stressed up! Okay if you finished, it's fine. Then, wish you the best. Don't make me stress now arrrr. Please. For you infromation my dear friends, I'm starting only now. Are you satisfied? happy? So, now onwards, don't ask anymore ya. Thank you ^^

That's all for today. I want to complete my sejarah and est homework TODAY! Give me support!!! After that, I will do revision! (:

Jo,
2005

Making decisions.

Woke up wanted to go for worship this morning, but my mum was not feeling well.
At last, didn't go AGAIN. -.-

I would like to share something I learnt during yp. So, those who didn't go today, please pay some attention to this (:
God touched my heart by His words again today, such a wonderful thing.
Before going to yp, I was so lost because of many problems such as my exam and so on.
Let's come to the topic for today which is MAKING DECISIONS.
We should always remember that no matter what decisions we made or we are going to make, GOD IS IN CONTROL OF EVERYTHING. And so, no matter what happens because of our decisions, we know we have a loving God on our side. The next thing is, we should always TRUST God.
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Decided to separate the two things (:

Mid year exam is coming, it's true that I'm quite worried because I didn't enter class for quite a number days. It is quite difficult for me to catch up. As there are lots of homework and I need to study too. How am I going to cope up with it? I keep asking myself. In addition to that, there were others things which made me distracted. So for a moment I just don't want to do anything, I want to just stay away from everything. Honestly, I forgot everything about God. I feel that God can't help me, and I was so sad and down everyday.

I shouldn't be scared or worried to face problems because God is always there with me. There will always be a way for me to settle everything. Now, full of strength, I will treat everything as a challenge, work hard and give my best. I now maybe I'm running out of time because the exam is next week but I will just do my best (: God has planned for me to take part in those competitions because before this some of them were in the same day but it's God's will for me to take part as all the date changed after that. God has planned everything and I know now for sure He will be with me and give me peace in my heart.

Quite frustrated when writing this post because actually I got a lot to talk but I didn't arrange it properly. So, the beginning is a bit out of the topic I think. haha -.-

Thank you aunty Jina for your message. It encourages me a lot and it reminds me that God is with me. I should always spend some time to talk to God everyday! Maybe no one will understand my feelings, but God certainly can understand me well.

Lost.

This few days very lost huh.

People consoled not to think about it anymore, can I?

Well, another few more minutes to Sunday. One week over again, mid year is coming. 

Am I ready? Absolutely not.

Why? I don't know. LOL

So, what am I still waiting for? haiz....

homeworks, books, exams, studies, tuitions, notes............

It's time for me to spend some precious time with you. 

Stop DREAMING.