TOMORROW IS THE DAY.

After practising for alomst a month, tomorrow is the day.
Arrgh... Starting to get panic now, please ar remember all the parts and don't make any mistakes!!! Once we are on the stage, we can't afford to do any mistakes.
Scared scared scared!!!
Anyway, we know we can do it. We practiced for so long already, and all of us want to win for sure!
Now, have to keep praying and praying. No panic no panic tomorrow!!!
I'm not on the stage what, so what for I worry, relax.....

Today, I heard Fatin's speech. Wow, she was great! Her expressions all everything perfect. Just hope that her impromptu will be good too. Pray for her, that she will win for our school.

Pray for all of us who are taking part in debate and choral speaking tomorrow,let's do our best :D

busy days.

This fews days are really busy for choral speaking, pidato and choir. The whole day in school, the things I do is just rushing here and there just to attend one practice after another. It will be a tiring week. Wow, for choral speaking, tomorrow is the last day for us to practise. But as a conductor, tomorrow I have to spend some time on my pidato too. Because I haven't been practising for it and luckily I finally managed to memorize my prepared speech.

Tomorrow- final day! Do our best! We must win this year :D

Oh Lord, we pray that all of us will do well in the competitions, not only just to perform but we want to win. Pray that Lord you will calm us on that day, so that we won't be panic, too excited and forgot all our parts. Amen.

Arrgh, didn't go for bm and add- maths tutition today, to prepare for the pidato. Missed add- maths again, hope that I can catch up. After all the competitions, it's time to study for my mid- year exam. We have not much time to go! 

lovely saturday.

Finally, it comes to weekend. Busy for the whole week, finally got some time to rest.
After resting, next week will be a busy week again. WE WANT TO WIN AR!
Will I be panic like last year? I hope not~ I want to do my best and win!
Still preparing now. Heard that Fuichi taking part in public speaking :D
Wish she can win and represent district :D
All the best :D

tired day.

Today, was informed there will be a pengakap camp. But, too bad... I can't join because I not ''layak'' yet ):

Hmm, after that was so busy all day. First, we started for choral speaking. I feel it's better today, and I gained more confidence to conduct. Today we actually did quite well, just hope that all of us especially me will remember all our parts -.-

After that, I went for this national science quiz which I don't know what isi it actually at 10 something. The questions are soooo difficlut. Three of us were completely blank and blur. We can't answer the questions at all.. Lastly, we used some stupid ways to answer them. Haha. Our ways are funny, really. LOL.

Right after the quiz, I rushed to the hall for choir. I think we are doing well :D Just that I'm losing my voice. After conducting the choral speaking, I can feel that my voice is a bit.... I can't sing some of the parts ): please don't torture me like this, all the 3 competitions need my voice! hmm, choral speaking doesn't need actually. Decided not to talk tomorrow during choral speaking!!

The last thing for today is.... I got 1st for the march test. I'm happy :D but, not too much ya this is just the first test, mid year is more important. Have to work hard and get first again :D

That's all,
nightss

I HAVE A BIG GOD.

In time of difficulties, don't ever say, ''God, I have a big problem.'' But instead, '' Hey problem, I have a big God.'' and everything will be alright. I received this message from a friend, I feel that it's very meaningful. Is God trying to speak to me? No matter how difficult is it the situation, God has planned everything, I should not worry so much. When I received the message, actually I typed a long one to reply my friend, but decided not to send, it's enough with a simple thank you with a sincere heart. Your message really makes me feel better.

Hmm, today I skipped chinese class again huh -.- lazy~
Trained for choir and I feel that it's quite ok already. We practised for one day only and we were doing well as what teacher said.
Tomorrow we will train again for choral speaking and choral speaking, so I'm not entering class for the whole day. Arrgh.... missing many classes.
We need to sacrifice some time in order to win. I'm taking 3, hoping that I will get something back from all 3. I don't want to come back with empty hands.That's a ''nono'' for me.
This time will be a challenge for me, I wan to face it TOUGHLY, BRAVELY & CONFIDENTLY.
I will surely do what I said.

As for my marks, I got all of them already. I got 81 for est, which is A1. I'm very very happy with that. Thank God for that. And also for physics, I got 77, A2. Missed another one together with chemistry. Same marks. While for sejarah, I got 95, A1 :D I know it's the first test only, so shouldn't be so happy yet. It's ok, I'm satisfied, but I know I still need to improve. Overall, I'm happy with my results. A1 for chinese, english, maths, add-maths, sejarah, est, accounts, bio, moral while A2 for bm, physics and chemistry. :D

It's late already, so that's all for today. Nightnight :D

It's raining outside there....

Today is the first school day after one week short break. Nothing much happened, it's just that the assembly was too long today and the sun was shining brightly -.-
I was informed today that the three competitions I am taking part will be on 1st, 2nd and 4th of April which is next week!! Now, how am I going to cope with all three of them?
When I'm writing this, I'm quite down actually.. Sad or angry? stressed? I don't know. Just blank..
Because it's raining? Because of the three? homework ? results? or because of YOU? I hope it's not any one of them, I will be alright by tomorrow I think.

Being a conductor. You know what? It's not an easy job. Or, am I making it difficult? I just don't know. I believe I can do it, but when I am facing them, I'm just not brave enough to lead them. I feel scared and worried, until now I haven't tried to lead them from the beginning to the end. What am I going to do next week? Just stand there like what I usually did?
I don't want to make a fool of myself on that day knowing nothing, now I'm trying hard to follow. I really don't get it what is my problem, I just don't know.
I wonder.... Actually, I'm not the suitable person, right?

My pidato. Ya, it's true that my long script is almost done. But honestly, I'm not ready at all. My impromptu speech I don't know anything yet. I did my research, but I haven't do a single one. What am I waiting for and why am I still wasting time here instead of starting to prepare them? You know what, I don't know how to write! This March test really makes me disappointed on my bm paper. Last time I used to score but now not, why? I used to add in nice words and phrases, now I added too but why did it come out like that? Almost all the peribahasa I used are all not suitable, usually I won't make mistakes like this but why this time it turned out like that? I'm over- confident? It really hurts me and even more when we are doing corrections today. She asked us to copy one of my friend's one. Hers is simple and direct whereas mine.... I don't know how to describe. You may take this as an excuse but it affects me a lot, I didn't expect to get such marks and I even thought I did ok for it. Now, I dare not do or add anything into my essays, I'm afraid it may turn out that way again.. And, please.... two points for the pidato, just two and I can't write, it's impossible right? what am I doing now actually!

And, another don't know what stupid Science quiz is coming on this Wednesday. I don't know anything and they can suddenly put my name and suddenly they just informed me like that. Hello? I'm not genius, without asking, without any notice, without anything, you just ask me to take part like that? And, I don't even know who is the one who asked me to take part, who put my name -.-

I'm sad. The rain stopped already. I love raining actually. After expressing, I feel better actually.
Just pray that everything will be alright by tomorrow.

nightsss.

FINALLY. byebye

Have to say byebye to my holidays liao ):
I'm still awake now because I was doing my script. I'm glad that I finished 3 points and my mum is happy with it too :D Tomorrow, she will pass it to the teacher in charge to check.
Arrghhh... I did not manage to finish my homework, so tomorrow will definitely be a tiring day as I have two tuitions and I have to do my homework which I haven't completed. ):
Today, didn't went for worship and yp meeting. We overslept and I had tuition so have to miss the meeting.

Another thing I realised is that, my room became messy again -.-
Papers and reference books lying all around, sorry mummy. Give me some time to clean it up!!! hehe.

It's time to sleep now, nightnight :D

I'm still awake.

I should be sleeping now but I'm still awake because of my homework. Really got so much more to do. I feel so regret as I always wait until the last minute only I start to be panic, worried and stressed.

Same goes to my script. I haven't even written a single word and I think the teacher expects to see it on Monday. What am I doing now?

I'm still struggling with my bm essay. I just finished est and sejarah homework which should be done long ago but since I was absent for the two days, they were on my list until now, finally cleared.

Still got many to go. I can't stay up for that, I don't want to get headache anymore. 

How am I going to finish them while facing so many problems with you? 

I wonder...........

...

Can't think of any topic for today.

As usual, I'm still lazy and 'enjoying' my life. I still haven't finish my script, waiting for my friend's reply and see whether she still has hers or not.

I'm stressed again when I see the homework on my table and the scripts which I have not done -.-

I just can't do anything, really don't know what to do with it and I ended up watching tv. 

I became emotional again and luckily Daven you still reminds me to pray and calm myself down. I really want to take this as a challenge and I know I can do it, but just I don't have the courage and I don't know where to start. This is an excuse I know.

YOU. If you can't help me, please don't disturb me! You are adding problems to me all the time. And, I hate that! I have enough things to worry, please stop all your nonsense. 

Oh ya, I did not mention before this that Joel is taking part in public speaking. And, praise Lord that he is doing a great job. Before this he was so scared and even refused to take part, now he finished memorizing in just two days. We are happy with that, hope that he will do well in the competition. Our competition will be on the same day, so I can't watch ): 

Pray to God that he will do his best and win the competition :D

What to do?

Regret regret regret!

Anyone can help by giving me some ideas on what to write about?
Here are the topics
1. Jalur Gemilang Lambang Perpaduan
2. Erti Merdeka dalam Minda Pelajar
3. Malaysia di Pentas Dunia
4. Remaja Berilmu Negara Maju
5. Integriti Maruah Negara

Help me pleaseeee ):

lazy lazy lazy~

Woke up at 7 something today,
went to school for add- maths tuition.
Add- maths --> blur -.-

Reached home at 12 something,
straight went to sleep.
Okay, I'm lazy and tired. haiz.

Again, woke up at 3pm because my cousin called,
then had lunch as I haven't eaten since morning!
Next, what shall I do?
Pidato speech?
Homework?
Facebook?

Who can help me with my homeworkkkk?
awww.. no point complaining. START NOW!

Tiring journey.

Finally, I reached home from Johor :D

15th of March
Reached Batu Pahat, went for lunch at Daddy Village. I had mee siam, which was not that nice, because it was not spicy at all. Then, went to the hospital and wanted to have a scan but because it was Sunday so didn't get to check. After that, we went back home to rest. And later, went to pack my favourite chicken wings!!! Dinner I didn't go out with them because I wanted to watch badminton, Swiss Open. CHong wei and Koo Kien Kiet & Tan Boon Heong won :D Chong wei beat lindan in straight sets, and I shouted so long while watching~ haha. At last, kkk and tbh won too.

16th of March
Morning, had breakfast in Jia Xiang. I didn't have the chance to try the nasi lemak! Went so early also finished already. So as usual, ate lao shu fen. Then, I went to the clinic to have a urine test. As we need a referring letter to go to the hospital, so we went to the clinic first. Waited for ONE hour, finally it's my turn. The doctor looked a bit weird huh -.- Had my urine test and the scan. The results was, I have stones in my kidneys. Both sides have three small stones. ): It's quite scary because usually at my age, I shouldn't get it. She gave me the medicines to eat. Okay, it's a lot and the medicine is soooo awful! Anyway, saw something cute! The doctor had a machine to pack the medicine! It's really a cute thing! haha -.-
Now, everyone know what had happened to me. Everyone is praying for me. Really hope that I will be ok. Must drink a lot of water.

This trip to Batu Pahat, I bought two pair of shoes and two blouse. :D:D Long time never shopping ma, haha. Haiz, tomorrow must go for add-maths tuition on school at 8.30 am. Mr. Chuah put his tuition today -.- I missed one on Monday already and today I missed again. Really don't know what to do with my add- maths ):

I'm tired and sleepy, tomorrow shall upload some photos. nightnight. :D

Miracles?

Wow, this morning, suddenly I received a call from my friend's mother. When I looked at the number, I actually can recognise, but I answered it. What she asked really scare me, my mind was just thinking, ''what to say?'' ''why he didn't delete the messages?'' Okay, had no choice but to tell the truth because she was actually forcing me to tell what had happened actually to his son. I told and she said she promised won't say it's me. I was so guilty so I told him what happened and yet he was not worried at all -.- So, the story ends there, I think he's not that sad anymore, his mum too no need to worry for him.

Then, I did some ''miracles'' today. First, I woke up extreamly early today, 8am. It was quite shocked when everyone saw me. Quite disappointed because we didn't went for breakfast at my favourite shop as we planned as my mum had tuition so we ended up with nasi lemal. Later, the next miracle, I swept and mopped the floor of the whole house. It was really tiring! I was so tired after that. My mum said it was miracle and she even said it's going to have snow in Malaysia -.- It was normal actually as I am a ''good'' girl always. HAHA. The overall one is that I didn't take a nap at all in the afternoon! Good Girl.

When I think of my homework, I will get headache. I got a lot to do! Didn't manage to do a single one today, will finish them on wednesday, when I come back from Johor. Oh ya, I didn't mention that I am going back to Batu Pahat. Will only be back on Tuesday.

That's all for today, will continue when I come back. nightsss :D

Happy Birthday to GERVONE (:

3 of us. Best friends always :D
WEIRD! HAHA
Xuewah, Gervone
XueWah, JoLene
JoLene, Gervone
Someone looks BLUR here~

Another one added to the ''gang''
CRAZY GIRLS non-stop~
Is HER again. Haha! Nice ar!
Main character is the most special ONE. 
CRAZY GIRLS~
Wow~ serious huh...
Crazy AGAIN or SLEEPY?
Look nice and FRIENDLY. Haha~

This morning was really raining heavily as what I hoped yesterday. Haha. Really had a nice sleep but..... HAiz~

He is going to work in Genting ): quite sad ar, but nothing can do......  Concentrate in my studies will do! 

Anyway, had a great time in kfc celebrating gervone's birthday :D As what is shown in the photos, when there are three of us, we are acting a little bit WEIRD and STRANGE? HAHA.

HAppy Birthday to GERVONE !!

TIRED mood

As usual, went to school -.- And, it's really wasting my time. Told me got practise, in the end ya we had but just few times. Want to win but not willing to suffer~ I really don't what am I suppose to do now, I myself confused -.- Ended up sleeping in school for quite some time. LOL

Don't ask for my results. if you read my blog, you will know. :D

Bm- 71, A2

English- 80, A1

Maths- 88, A1

Add-maths- 85, A1

Chemistry- 77, A2

Chinese- 81, A1

Moral- 80, A1

Accounts- 90, A1

Biology- 94, A1

Tomorrow, not going to school. Hope it rains. I want to have a nice sleep :D

RESULTS

Bm- 71, A2

English- 80, A1

Maths- 88, A1

Add-maths- 85, A1

Chemistry- 77, A2

Chinese- 81, A1

Moral- 80, A1

Accounts- 90, A1

Still not SATISFIED?

Today, entered choral speaking again. So, I will have two competitions within the week, pidato on 1st of April while choral speaking on 2nd of April. Hope to get something back from both of them. I'm determined to win!!!

Quite sad after hearing what she said, ''you should learn from your lesson.'' 

I said:'' why should I? I didn't get 50 marks what...''

She said:'' no, you should learn from your lesson, why people can get 90 but you can't?'' 

Zzz  :''..."

That means she cares la when I did not get the highest? What do you expect me to do? 

Last time I used to get stressed up, because I can't get the highest. And, who is the one who told me, '' don't care about the marks, as long as  you get A.'' '' don't give yourself so much pressure'' ''don't feel so stress''

What do you want actually?

I consoled myself so much when everyone scored for chemistry, and yet you told me I should learn from my lesson? I got 80 which is also A1 and you asked me to learn from my lesson just because I did not get 90? 

Actually, you are not satisfied with my marks at all right this time, as I did not get the highest for even a single subject?

Ok, if it's like that, I know this is what you want, I will prove to you for mid year! No matter how, I will get the highest for you! Since it really mean that much to you!

I'm really quite disappointed, sad, and confused about what you had told me before this and just now. The only thing I can do now is to work hard. Everyone wants to be the top one. Everyone cares. There is no 'did your best' business anymore, nobody cares whether you did your best or not, they just care about your results. 

FINALLY, I know how you think about me & my results today. Thanks for your words and I will NEVER forget, as it really hurts. For others, it may be nothing, but let me tell you, it really hurts me. :( 

With my sleepy eyes and moody face, that's the end.

Tired and full !

Came back from centre point. Ok, I'm sleepy now and tired and full! Most probably ate too much just now, spent about 20 for each one of us. 

It's time to sleep. I will continue tomorrow :D nightnight.

FINISHED FINALLY.

Wow, cheers for all of us. We finished our March test. This time is quite weird, maybe it's just a monthly test we did not have the ''test mood'' actually. Haha. Anyway, I'm going out to celebrate today! 

* Got my results already for the first test for form four.

Bm- 71, A2

English- 80, A1

Maths- 88, A1

Add-maths- 85, A1

Chemistry- 77, A2

Chinese- 81, A1

* Quite disappointed for chemistry as others can score, but I thank God that I still can get A :D

So, no complains!

Bio, physics, accounts, moral & est to be continued....

TEST

All the best for the last three papers tomorrow. 

The pain... Please don't attack me during the test ):

It's time to wake up.

Yesterday, suddenly became so crazy and out of controlled, really like some other people controlling me. Felt so bad yesterday. Fortunately, took a good rest and I'm fresh now. And, now it's the time to wake up already. Tomorrow there are another three more papers. THE TEST HAS NOT YET END! So, no more games for today. Just to write something here and I will continue on some of my revision for physics and add-maths. I read through physics already, so it's add-maths turn now~ Later will have tuition until 9.30pm. 

To be continued..... If I'm not that tired.

* Tomorrow is your birthday, Happy Birthday. I know you wish for a special birthday with someone? Hope your wish come true :D

Lazy-ing

Opps, I didn't go for yp today for some reasons -.- Anyway, xuewah came to discuss about physics. I am so blank about it and yet she came and ask me to explain. Tried very hard to make some short notes for her, hope they will help her lo. Hmm, yesterday saw chong wei's match against taufik. Interesting second match as Taufik fight back, but at last Chong Wei won too. Today will be against Lin dan. Arrgh... I don't know whether will be able to watch or not later because I got tuition at 8pm ar ): Have to rush back! hehe. 

Stop here first, will be continued~

I LOVE SATURDAYS THE MOST!

Today, it was raining in the morning, when I suddenly woke up, I went to my mum's room. Realising that they were still sleeping, I was so happy and went back to my dreamland again. Who knows after 10 minutes somebody knocked on my door, asking me to wake up. How can they treat me like this -.- I saw them sleeping but after 10 minutes they were ready, is it possible? As usual, I took my own sweet time bathing and drying my hair until 9.45. But before that, I switched on my laptop and went to check for the results. Expected, they were out again. Chong Wei is alone again this time as he reached the semi final, today will be against Taufik at 8.30pm. Can't wait to watch!!

After having breakfast, I reached home hanging around like a ''sapo'', then I went to sleep. I slept for a long long time until my mum called -.- Ok, after all the nonsense, let's talk about my March test. For maths, est, add-maths and physics...... Anyway, let's see how will it be. 

Chatted with a friend just now, and he was sad for his results. He didn't get what he targetted before this. I tried to console him, but when he asked me this question, ''if it's you, you will be the same right?'' Ya, both of us care a lot for our results, and what he said was true. Anyway, like what he said, it cannot be changed. So, what can we do? We can only accept it and admit that we still have to improve ourselves. This is what I told myself throughout the test, I'm going to do my best, but what comes out I will accept it. It's human nature to be unhappy when people get better than you, but why shoould I be unhappy when other people get good results as they have did their best and they too worked hard for it. They deserved it, sometimes we must admit that. 

Recently, I'm quite emotional. I don't know why I become such a person that I don't know what am I doing. I told myself studies will always be my first thing to think about, and why I am lost now? I will not let myself to be like that anymore, it's time to wake up. What for caring for other people so much, as it may not last, I know it exactly. And, I just don't know why I don't have the courage to end it. Honestly, I care who are you, I care about your attitudes, the way you act and so on. Just to say, you are not the right person):

I still cant's find my usb which makes me really angry about it! Will upload some photos when I found it.... That's for today, hope my friend will not be sad anymore :D

Feeling relax a bit~

-FRIDAY-

Biology and maths paper finished. But, maths last question difficult, don't know will lost how many marks there ): Haiz... Long question sure I don't know how to do~ I don't want to see my marks this time, really don't what will get. 

Kt didn't win the champion, but we know that they really work hard for it already, at least they got second. And, baobao lose to lindan again. Very sad ar, haiz

-WEDNESDAY, THURSDAY-

Went to watch basketball competition this year, kt won two matches which are against sb and abs. When kt won, everybody was surprised as kt was able to beat abs. But, it's sad that for those who didn't win, even saw people cried, the feeling of not winning is really very bad. Eventhough kt won, I felt sad too ):

medicines~

Today, I didn't go to school as I was suffering from my back pain + stomach pain. My mum scared it will be kidney problems so she didn't go to school too. And, after that, she brought me to see the doctor. Okay, my ''friend'' came and visit me again. This time not only attacked my stomach but my back too ): The doctor said it's the urine infection. Last time, I used to get it too, and the doctor asked me to go back once a week to check but I didn't ): now, serves me right la as my mum said. I have to take five medicines and go back to him again next week. If the pain becomes more serious, the doctor recommend me to go to the hospital for a scan. When he was explaining how they scan, oh my goodness, I was shivering! That's scary ok.....  

Wednesday is my test yet I'm not well prepared yet, don't know how will it be ):

Anyway, I will do my best especially in Sejarah for your sake!!!! 

That's all for now, just got wednesday's test time table, so I shall start to study seriously now.