stressed stressed stressed!

My homework is as usual still so much more to go. to be completed.

So after this short post, I will continue doing my homework.

Regretted sleeping in the afternoon which really wasted my time!

I skipped chinese class just to complete my homework, but I can't stand it and I went to sleep.

haiz -.- lazy again. WHY IS JOLENE SOOOOOOOO LAZY!!!!!!!!!!!!! -ANGRY- -STRESSED-

DON'T COME NEAR ME OR I WILL EAT YOU!

Saw her blog.

Sometimes, I really feel that the person you talking about is me.

I don't know why.

If it's true, just write out the name or let me know.

You write until like that, if people think the person is him or herself, how will the person feel?

Like what am I doing now, I'm guessing and thinking what have I done wrong to you.

Maybe, I really don't know how to treat friends well.

So, since form one, everytime anything happened, sure I was involved in it.

Maybe this is really my problem, really pray hard to God that He will help me to change myself.

I appreciate you as a friend too, for sure I don't want to lose such a good friend, but you write until like that, people who knows also will know who is that lo.

You are close with how many friends in school.............. haiz. . .

I'm praying very hard now, to control my feelings.

I'm going to get crazy soon I know.

So, better DON'T COME NEAR ME!

homework, I LOVE YOU (:

Confused & stressed

As stated in my title, yea Jolene is very very very stressed.

My homework never ends! I will never finish my homework!!!!!!!!

I am very stressed now!

I just don't understand why others can finish their homework, but Jolene cannot!!! WHY?

BECAUSE JOLENE IS GETTING LAZIER AND LAZIER!!!!

I don't know what nonsense I'm doing.

I tried I really tried ar to do my homework but why it still ended up like that?

The number of homework to be completed will not decrease ):

List of homework

1. Bm (essay-jiran)

2. Add- maths

3. Literature

4. Directed Writing

5. Continuous writing

6. Chemistry- notes

7. Chemistry- exercise

8. Est

9. Bm- komsas

10. Sejarah- nota

11. Sejarah- latihan and pembetulan

12. Biology- notes

13. Moral

14. Lisan

15. Oral

16. Maths

Who will have so much homework like me?

I'm just lazy.

Why am I here?

Because I got nobody to talk to.

I will go crazy soon. ):

Which to do first? you tell me ):

Stressed girl ...

Pain.

Yesterday, suddenly got stomachache again.

It is not the same pain I had last time la, now I can't differentiate already how is the pain -.-

You think I like the pain so much?

I like to take medicine so much?

I like to make you worried?

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You just don't know.

Yea, it's my own body, if I don't take care of myself, I'm suffering on my own.

So, you know how suffering is it?

You know how is the pain?

You don't know!

Yet, you still want to scold me in front of others.

You think I like to get scolding?

It's you yourself who said that taking too much medicine is bad for my health.

I avoided and I cut down.

I take that day when the pain comes, then when the pain goes off I stop la.

You siad I'm giving excuses.

Again, my fault!

I take also wrong, don't take also wrong.

It's just whatever I did, all wrong!

What should I do to make you satisfied?

Overall, if the stones are still there, I'm the one who will go for operation.

You think only you are worried, I myself don't feel scared at all? Going for an operation? ):

Had urine test, the doctor said the blood is still there, moderate level.

More than usual.

ph level only 5 which is very acidic.

Conclusion, take medicine again la.

After one week, have to return to the clinic again for the urine test.

If it still doesn't clear, then will have to go to the hospital for x-ray or ultra scan, yea something lik that.

Now, everything can't drink except plain water.

Well done Jolene. ): I HATE WATER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You just don't know how much I hate it, but I have to drink too right. Yea, take that as a YES!

NO MORE GASSY DRINKS, BOX DRINKS WHATEVER DRINKS FOR JOLENE.

YA, I'M ABNORMAL AS YOU SAID.

I CAN'T BE LIKE NORMAL PEOPLE, WHAT ALSO I CAN'T EAT OR DRINK.

FOREVER AND EVER!

Satisfied?

- angry - that you scold me in front of others! Never think of my feelings! I know you are worried for me, you think I purposely invite the pain to come? or invite the stones to come?

Ya, to you I'm always stubborn, not matured, don't know how to take care of myself, messy, lazy!

I do what also useless de la!

a new Jolene.

Just came back after dinner.
Just now went to Miss Xuewah's palace. Then, went to snap photos for moral project lo.

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no electricity -.- so now 11.49, let's continue.

Okay, damn funny snapping weird photos.

First, we must snap the photo of the RUBBISH,

then snap the person picking the rubbish,

lastly the person throwing the rubbish into the dustbin.

Teacher said, we must not just go and snap photos for the project, but we must do it sincerely~

SAYANGI ALAM SEKITAR.

WOW~~~

So at first, I reached xuewah's house and guess what was she doing?

Sleeping like a pig there~~~ hugging her momo. she has one too. haha

then, started to do homework for one minute and she switched on the tv.

GOT DISTRACTED AS USUAL.

Joined her for the show, got addicted and can't stop. haha

Mumu sms me, asking me to go tomorrow, but tomorrow got tuition ar. Sorry mumu.

About 6pm, we finally decided to go to the park.

): my show, last episode. she doen't want to let me finish it. B. A. D.

We went to the park, and only today I know there is a new park there. -.-''

Okay, it's been a long time since I last been there, so you can't blame me wat.

Walked one round while waiting daven to come,

saw Mr. L and his friend.

We finally started snapping those weird and funny photos.

What is the purpose of snapping the photos huh?

To show or to prove that we love our environment?

It's like acting -.-

I think those people there just now should be wondering what were we doing. haha.

At last, our Mr. Daven reached.

After snapping all the photos, we walked back to xuewah's house.

My mum reached just after we reached home, good timing huh. (:

Didn't have time to change and went straight for dinner.

Shared with my mum about the burden which I let go, I mean finally I let go.

Wow, God loves me a lot :D Nobody can deny that.

Luckily, my lovely mum was not angry after she knew what happened.

Anyway, everything has come to an end. Don't think anymore :D

That's all I guess for today.

I managed to finish one homework in xuewah's house.

At least I did something. Now, once I switch on my computer, then non- stop le -.-

Oh ya, I forgot to watch badminton semi- final ar!!!! Arrghhh ): I overslept!!!!! Fortunately, kkk and tbh won, chongwei won too. Tomorrow will be all malaysians men doubles final :D

I really hope you understand la, haiyo.

There are things really can't explain properly de, what you want me to do wor?

I already let go one, I don't want to start again.

Relationship won't last long, friends will last forever leh.

Don't say sorry anymore.

Thanks for your cooperation. haha ><

Fuichi, be tough!!!

That's all. niightnight (:

GLAD

Do you know how happy am I now?

WOW.... ~ hehe.

I'm glad that God listened my prayer, He knows what is happening, He knows what is bothering me. And, He solved it for me.

Praise Lord!!!!!!

I'm glad that we are still friends :D

Luckily this time God keep reminding me that I shouldn't act without thinking, shouldn't think negatively.

WOW. I HAVE AN AMAZING GOD. THANK GOD. :D

发奋图强- day.

Wahahaha, jolene 发奋图强 wants to be hardworking le!

My friends all look down on me huh, say I won't do my homework and I will sleep in the afternoon.

Hello, I finished my bm. Although it is not much I know, isn't it a good start for me? haha.

I can't take it anymore so I slept and 6.15 and woke up at 6.45pm. Wow, first time I really took a SHORT nap. hehehe.

Forgot to call wailing ar, to prove that I was doing homework!

Then, read my lovely xuewah's blog and prepared for bk class.

Had a great bk class. Okay, what is bk? bible knowledge~

To you, I asked you before some questions right? see, God really loves me. He speaks to me through Uncle Sai Kee again. Wow, I have a great God who knows me the most and loves me the most! Praise Lord.

And, really praise the Lord that I am able to calm myself now, trying to let go the burden in my heart.

I feel much more relived now. Thank you, Lord.

Well, after the class, I reached home and immediately I continued on my homework.

Seeee. Jolene doesn't want to be lazy anymore! Not for today only, tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow will be more and more hardworking! Give some support la! haha.

I finished est homework FINALLY. Now, I am blogging after this I still need to paste the ''whole stack'' of papers in my book. -.-

Nothing much for today.

What has been past, I don't wish to talk about it anymore.

Just to let you know, we still treat you as a friend. Don't spoile the relationship. Hmm, I chose to go yesterday is an answer for you that I still appreciate you as my friend.

I admit I can't bear to see the comment in your blog, I even left a comment there.

I think the person realised it even after I deleted mine, the person's one gone too. Now, I apologised. I'm sorry to that person. My words maybe too harsh just now. Hope you see this (:

written by,

Jolene

SAD

Today, I didn't go to school because I was suffering from the back pain again.

So, whole day at home, sleep also can feel the pain, have to rely on medicines again. This is what I don't like. Mummy is worried. I don't want her to be worried anymore ):

I didn't go to school, but almost all the teachers didn't enter class. haha =.=

This is specially to you, my friend.

I didn't actually want to write this out, but since you did it, I want you to know something.

I got very hurt with all the words from your blog, every single word hurt me deeply. I really feel sad with what you have written, and how you feel now.

We can be considered as best friends, even if you don't, I treat you as my best best friend.

Today is your birthday, okay maybe it was yesterday. All of us are happy and we just wanted to celebrate with you, understand? We are happy for you, we wanted to celebrate with you sincerely.

What's the meaning of自己爽？If that is not your birthday, we don't need to invite you out, and treat you a meal right? If we really want to be happy just for ourselves, we don't need to call you out.

Okay, finally you came. And guess what you did? We were happy that you came, I mean at least you came. But, you gave us that reaction that you said you didn't know why we called you out. I mean, it's your bithday, right?

See us eating and just happy on our own? Do you expect us to actually wait until the minute you come? And just to tell us that you have already eaten? Okay, if you don't want come, please just tell us that you don't want to come, you don't want to celebrate, you don't want to see us.

You said you will come. So, we were willing to wait. Why didn't we change place? Where should we go? You said you will come, and what time you came? You ate, but we didn't you know?

We prepared the cake for you. You just didn't care, didn't even bother to have a look on the cake. Come on, if that was like what you said, we bought a cake just to make a fool in front of you? What's the purpose of buying the cake? It's your birthday my friend. I mean, even if you don't like the present or don't like the arrangement or don't like us, should you show us the attitude like that? If we don't treat you as our friend, we won't do so many things k.

We were so surprised that you actually reacted like that.

We suspected that something must have happened.

We just ignored everything and tried our best to cheer you up, to make you happy?

At last, it turns out like that?

It came all out in your blog.

I'm not trying to gain anything from anyone or trying to upset you or even to say how good we are. I'm not trying to upset you by writing this out. I just hope you to really understand. I am sure we are not angry for what you did to us, we are just sad that you don't show any appreciation to what we did.

I know you have things to do. You said you would come, so we waited.

I'm not feeling well, I went because you are my friend, and it's your birthday.

I know I didn't show up for the other one because of the same reason, so I didn't want to upset you again.

I didn't know what we did actually make you upset and unhappy.

I really hope to let you know that, please don't say until like that.

We were not doing all those things for ourselves, we were doing for you.

Even if you are upset of something else or you just don't feel like celebrating with us, okay now it's over.

I will just be more careful next time, I don't want any of my friends to be unhappy like that, especially on her birthday some more.

Everything is over now, I hope you are okay after this.

Happy Birthday.

I thought I was angry, but I was actually very sad. Ya, I never expect things to be like that.

I don't want to lose a friend again. I'm sorry if I really made you that angry or unhappy. Just sorry.

I can truely understand the feeling of getting hurt, getting hurt by someone you love the most and someone who is your best friend.

So, don't ever ever try to hurt someone.

Even you may think what you did was right, but you may simply hurt her/he in a way which you don't know how you did it..

Will just pray for you,

I'm sorry.