开心背后的眼泪

Today's assembly was so short. Zzz. maths after that. planes planes planes???? Was turning in all direction trying to imagine and have a picture of it.

WOw, exam is nearrr... yea~~~

During moral lesson, heard that the ambulance came to our school, a girl was fainted. Anyone knows about it? the details? not 38, I'm just worried. No one knows what, it maybe really H1N1? She sesak nafas leh, which is one of the symptoms!! Anyway, pray that she will recovered ^^

Bm no teacher today, guess she have gone with the all the pidato's trip. 3 pidato is going on tomorrow, pray for them!!

After them, the teacher will come to me. As mine, the state level also haven't passed. Since april or may till now... I hope that I can finish with it faster. But, don't give me a shock by sending the letter today, and the competition is tomorrow.

hey, don't ever treat me like that!!! haha.

So, later as usual, bm and add maths tuition~

Can't wait to come home and have a nice sleep at night.

I guess that's all.

p/s im glad that you sensed that my mind was somewhere else just now in school. it's just the same normal problem ): I know I have to overcome it. Maybe I'm just not in their world, but I don't want to create problems or force people anymore. Just let it be. I have God, my family and you.

Crazy Little Thing Called Love.

Yea, we went for the drama yesterday.I missed the very beginning of it as I was ushering, people still coming. Yea, thank God that many people came yesterday to watch the play. A

nd, it was really very interesting and touching.

Act 1, which was about relationship, I almost missed the whole part of it, as my mind was some where else -.-

Act 2, yea, it really touched my feelings. About family matters.

Overall, I enjoyed it a lot, really a lot.

I wish to watch it again!! haha.

I truely enjoyed the drama, but in the same time, I was damn sad yesterday as I did a very very big mistake and hurt myself badly...............

I will never forget that moment you treated me. Don't misunderstand (:

It's just to remind me not to treat others cruely, or just thinking about myself only.

Today is THE DAY. :D:D:D:D:D:D:D

super boliao. as u see the difference + my weird fingers

清醒

Very fast, today is friday already.

Another two weeks, monthly exam will start.

In order not to make myself too stress, I promise that I will start studying this weekend, no delay anymore.

I don't care what about others, I just want to be myself. wowwow. Jolene talking. LOL.

This afternoon, I was suffering from a bad headache, so skipped physics tuition.

However, attended accounts tuition, because last week missed the class already, I can't afford to miss any accounts' class anymore.

Accounts, as usual. HEADACHE.

In school, already super duper BLUR because of add maths, and again accounts attacked me.

During add maths lesson, seriously you know, I was like always dreaming away.

I just do what I can, but mostly the questions given by the teacher is too difficult, and I just wait for her to give the answer, while I copy in my book.

I wonder how am I going to sit for the exam ya............

CRAZY OF ADD MATHS. SICK OF ADD MATHS. BUT, I STILL LOVE ADD MATHS.

Hello, I can overcome kh for pmr, so I must overcome this too right? hehehe.

From now onwards, JOLENE LOVES ADD MATHS.

Watch烈火雄心3 just now. 欣赏卓柏宇（郑嘉颖）在戏里的坚强，自己没做的事，一点也不会去担心。发生什么事，自己都会以成熟的性格去对待。这还是我第一次赞他做得那么好。不过经过法政先锋后，对他改观了许多。

要说的其实不是他演得有多好，欣赏的是那人物的性格。

而钟有成（王喜）跌倒后，那种无助的感受，令我醒悟并想了很多东西。

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Somebody spoiled my mood, I got no mood to continue. wait for the next post bah.

Goodnight.

我要的

Thursday.

So fast, this week is coming to an end. And, start again monday, tuesday, wed....

Everyday the same routine, same feelings, same same same......

Don't you feel fed up and tired with life?

Well, today, all of a sudden, unexpected, I was chosen to be the secretary of the badan pengawas smkt, sesi 2010 I guess? LOL.

Wow, you know, s/u has lots of work... I don't really know whether I can handle or not.

I'm happy of taking the pose as it will gain koko marks :D But, I'm too busy for prefect's work.

It's quite ridiculous right, they actually put the form 6 girl as the penolong s/u. I should be her assistant right?

They voted actually, and I have no idea how much votes I got or she got... blablabla.

The main point is, I have extra work to do.

As long as God is with me, I know I can handle it. SO, good luck Jolene (:

Fortunately, all the ''old'' pengawas became penolong exco, as least we all earned marks for koko :D

Don't leave me friends, I'm still the same like you all ):

Homework.

more and more as usual.

Planned to do in the afternoon but failed.

Serious headache so slept.

And wake up, went for bk. There goes my afternoon~~~

Uncle Sai Kee said that he is glad that I changed my mind, means I'm taking bk....

How am I going to take, that's the question. Leave it to God, He will decide :D

Finally, finished the book of Acts. I actually expected to know what happened to Paul in the end, but............. the book of Acts actually ended like, Paul preached the gospel to the gentiles full of boldness and freedom... Something like that. Why never mentioned about how was Paul ):

I WILL FIND OUT! And, must start preparing for next year's bk quiz. Must get in at least third round man!!!!!!!!! haha. I know I can't beat the two pastors to-be. They will get into the final six :D

So, daven!!!!!!!!!! If possible, you will be my partner next year. Please start reading the book of Acts and Luke!!!!!!!!!!!!! I DON'T WANT TO GET ANY ZERO BACK ANYMORE!!!!!!

That's all, have to continue on physics report -.-''

Goodnight.

又过了一天

So fast, today is wednesday already.

Friends, our monthly exam is around the corner, are you and me prepared?

Haha, for me, I'm still BLURR with my add maths, I shall take this weekend to revise for it.

Anyone able to help me?

Okay, let's talk about today.

Today was such a great day. We went to school just for two periods of moral :D:D First time ar, so shuang! Est, english, biology no teacher! wow~ pj teacher entered, but I was as usual starring at him, dreaming~ I starred, because I wanted him to think that I was listening to him. And so, when he looked at me, I just nodded for whatever he said. Actually, I know nothing! HAHA. Too bad, so sorry ya, your pj not included in my spm. So, stay away~

This pj teacher ar, I hate the topic that he was teaching since last few weeks.

I don't like people to talk about emotion, stress or bla bla bla.

Because, I feel like he is talking to me! haha, and that's the truth. Okay lah, I know I'm emotional, stop reminding me, fine, I will change.

Change change change, when will I really change? now, tomorrow or later?

Today no assembly too :D Really love today a lot!!!!!!!

Anyway, we had our pengakap meeting. Discussed about what must we take part in and everything about the camp.

At first, wanted to go. Then, lazy to go. Finally, decided to go. LASTYLY.................

Wow, the competitions are quite interesting, however, it's NOT for Jolene. haha.

Cooking, the theme is ''nasi goreng''. If Jolene cooks, it will turn out...?? nasi hangus maybe? Or, maybe worst? Not even nasi, but HANGUS? too bad~

Gadget thing, opps.. sorry, not interested! very sensitive with that ''GXXXXX'' word. Embarrassing memory for me ):

Pertolongan cemas? nah... Jolene needs people to rescue man.... hahaha.

Malam kebudayaan? Jolene is not creative, idea-less, plus LAZY.

Something to do with mendidih air? I got no idea what is it, okay I don't even know what's it, so OUT.

Kawad, a nono too actually. But, it's the easiest I guess, just to memorize what to do. Anyway, Jolene hardly knows how to KAWAD. haha.

Futsal? Hey! For boys man...

Okay fine, so bola jaring?? Hey, this's for girls! But...... NOT JOLENE, because poor jolene doesn't know how to play............... sad right........

And soo soo on.... I don't remember what are the other competitions that they have.

Have different ideas with friends, make the situation very....?? Anyway, glad that we are fine :D

Sometimes really feel very stupid, like after quarrel already, will think, why am I getting angry with small small things? Why do I want to make myself so ''fan''? LOL. haha.

Enjoy our life is better :D

Started to discuss what to bring. Tracksuits, uniform, socks, shoes, hair dryer(suggested by xuewah, hahaha) and bla bla bla.........

Now, let me conclude everything, the camp is cancelled XD

And you know what, Jolene feels disappointed for some moment because I have actually prepared my MOOD to go!!!! And also, mc for monday! hahahahaha. Now, who is the person who say CANCELLED!!!!!!!!!

After that short short moment, I'M HAPPY. No need to get so tired!!! Saturday and sunday won't leave my lovely bed (:

Finished. Many but but but today ar I realised. Sot jor~~~

JOLENE, THE CLOCK SHOWS THAT IT'S 2210 NOW! SO, IT'S THE TIME TO CONTINUE ON YOUR HOMEWORK.

Goodnight guys.

p/s drama in church this saturday, 8pm. come come!!!! I'm glad that the camp is cancelled, and I'm able to go now!!! hehehe.

沉默

Jolene is a good girl today, attended chinese class leh, not like that lazy xuewah. hahaha. relax ar.

Today is tuesday, the day which I don't like the most. 3 science subjects in a day, chinese class in the afternoon and chemistry tuition at night. It's tiring man......

Having headache and sore throat, but still eating kfc before chinese class, okay I know I pro :D

My brother still having fever ar ): Don't know whether is it I'm the one who brought back the virus. Hope that he will recover soon.

As he is sick, we are living in a peaceful environment without his irritating voice. Good. Rest well, Joel.

Jolene actually has a lot of homework, but after posting, I'm going to sleep. Tomorrow two free periods during est, shall do moral or any of the reports. I'm getting fed up with both of them.

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I'm having this idea recently, to quit being a prefect.

Okay, let me tell you the reason, but I'm sure you will feel it's a very stupid reason. HAHA.

You know what, I feel that the prefect's uniform is very UGLY! HAHA. That's why I prefer those normal ones.

However, most of my friends have became prefects recently. If I quit now, I will not be with them le ): and I will not have those offers for pengawas. haha or 优待~~~

But, to be honest, there are not many 优待 actually. haha. Just can skip assembly loh when you have the tugas at other place ^^

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actually forgotten what to write, have been disturbed by miss jiayiee as she completed her blog. haha.

okay, that's the 1st reason la about the uniform de, now second, which is I want to be a more simple person, or just a normal one? haha, what am I trying to say?

Maybe, I'm influenced by she and she. Last time, I like her a lot, so I tend to follow her style and lost myself, and now same goes to the second her. haha. no lah, what I mean is, I just don't want to be bothered by too many things, just want to concentrate on my studies, don't want to get scolding from others (sometimes, it's not that often anyway). LOL.

And, maybe being a normal student, I can enjoy my school life more won't be so stress?

okay laa, that's just all my imagination, opinion and thinking. too much~

Finished about uniform, umm... nono, should be prefect's things.

now, go on about my life.

Jolene is in a comfortable and stress-free life. haha. Thank God for that. At least, I can handle my STRESS-ness well. LOL. Do homework one by one everyday, hoping to finish it soon. Hope plus doing. :D

There were some problems in school today, luckily they are solved.

开心或不开心，是看自己怎么想的。

　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　 不要只为自己而想，什么都‘我，我，我’，　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　试着为身边的人想想！　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　

　　　　　　　　　　 这是提醒自己必须改变的第一件事　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　

HMmmmmm, that's all la.

Goodnight.

bible knowledge quiz

wellwell, I'm back after all the stressed, depressed moments, now I'm back with joy, happiness that given by God.

Thursday night, I was still reluctant whether to go or not for the bible knowledge quiz.

Uncle Sai Kee called, and tried to persuade me to go, just for fun.

Conclusion is, I had fun during the trip, and I truely enjoyed it although there were some EXPECTED SURPRISES, haha. Do you get what I mean?

We travelled to kl yesterday, the journey was blessed by God, we didn't lost like last year they did. But, there was this traffic light. Oh my goodness, we even counted you know. Within 10 seconds, it will change to either green or red, whereas the other side was 1- 2 minutes. So, everyone one was stucked there, and it caused traffic jam.

Hmm, we reached Wisma Methodist, the place we stayed overnight, about 7++ I think.

Here's a big WOW for it.

For competitions, normally we don't expect much right, I thought it was going to be some sort like normal school hostels?

WOW, the rooms were like hotel rooms! Two single beds and one double bed, and a plasma tv. wow. Everyone was surprised. Thank God for that, we had a comfortable night (:

After putting down our things, we went to Petaling street. Had our dinner there, and went for a walk around the place.

Saw many LV bags man.... haha.

Well, if yesterday was the normal jolene, she wouldn't give up the chance walking and looking around. But, I was just too tired to do so.

Anyway, I bought three bookmarks and a cute pencil, probably two for my mum (: she likes bookmarks.

Finally, we went back and took our bath. Wow, so relaxing!!! Switched on the tv, and guess what, our plan to read until morning failed completely. ):

Even when we were watching, we felt sleepy already and finally slept without finished watching the show. -.-

Today, it was even more interesting.

We have to gather by 6.10 am, SOOOO EARLY!

Woke up and prepared everything ready, there we go, to SMK Assunta. And, I was still half awake.

After 10- 15 minutes, we reached there. The school was quite huge. More and more people came. People were reading, while we were dreaming, or maybe I was the one dreaming. haha~

Had breakfast and briefing, finally 1st round started, 40 objective questions in half an hour.

It's difficult!!! ); because Jolene didn't read. Great.

1st congratez to the abs team, they got total 70/80, one of the top scores, don't play play ya with our pastor to-be, Mr Jingye and Mr Yu Seng :D

Then, 2nd round, 10 questions. It's like they ask, and we answer.

Best part for sam and I. WOW, we actually got 0 for this round. Great right? First time in competitions, that I don't even know to answer one of it. WOW. haha. This is the 2nd surprise :D

Abs team, as usual scored again, their total was 92/140, where the top score was 108, not bad right? Should be excellent! For us too, we were the only one who got ZERO. It's so embarrassing lahh~~

Lastly, third round was the difficult part. Anyway, well done guys, you guys made it to the third round, almost final. Next year, you all will be one of the six in final :D jiayou!

Then, we went back to Wisma Methodist. But, the traffic jam was terrible.

So, we came down from the bus and walked to Mid Valley for lunch. ( I was starving)

Too many choices, I ate my dessert first then only I ordered rice, with lala and sotong, nice :D

After lunch, okay here's the part.

We couldn't travel by car or bus, because the traffic was real busy, and we actually went to the ktm station, took ktm, walked, took monorail, took lrt and walked again back to Wisma Methodist. missionery trips is it?

Wow, the weather was SUPER DUPER HOT. Thank God, we still got our way back :D

Got our clothes changed and finally home sweet home (:

Now, I'm TIRED.

GOODNIGHT EVERYONE.

shall talk more about my feelings tomorrow ya.