MONDAY.

Assembly was so long today. Tired -.-

Entered for moral class after that and english.

Really have a lots of homework to do, until I don't know what to do with them. Where to start first?

I'm getting crazy soon!!!

Anyway, the Cameron trip was canceled. I don't know what happened, they just decided that the pidato will be on a separate day and place, which is good for me? nono, I thought can go to Cameron, because I never been there before ):

The competition will be held on 25 of May in Maran. I think it will be during my mid year test. How am I going to cope with it?  Have to memorise 6 topics all together -.-

Pleaseeee, stop asking me about my homework.

I know I haven't complete any of them, just stop asking me! I feel stressed up!

Although I won, I had to pay for it ): 

This week whole week will be practicing for choir. haiz. Now, I feel that I don't like to enter class to study anymore. I missed so many classes, and I wonder how am I going to do in the mid year test.. How am I going to achive my aim ?? ):

That's all. I'm sleepy but still have to work on my homework! crazyyyyyyyyyy~

Last day.

Today is the last day I'm being dependent.
I'm so lost today. I thought I can depend on you all the time, but now I realised I can't.
Ya I feel so miserable when I saw a cockroach in my room, and I don't know what to do. What did you all do? How do you all responded? Like no one heard?
Okay fine. I really understand now. And for goodness sake, at this moment, I'm terribly lost and I promised myself I won't be the Jolene last time anymore. It's time to be mature. I never felt as bad as now before.

I spent one hour cleaning my room.
I totally agree that God has planned everything. He knew what's going to happen next.
The cockroach appeared, and really I don't know what can I do. I just know to feel scared and I'm helpless. But when I think back, maybe this is planned, only because of that, I will start to clean my room and I will wake up and realise that I can't depend on people all the time. Everytime when I face difficulties, I'm looking for other's help. It's true. Now, I'm scared. Yes, I do feel sad and miserable and lost that you all didn't even want to come and have a look or even help me, whereas you all just continue on what you all were doing, act as if you all were deaf? I'm really angry. And now, I won't depend on you all anymore.

You can only trust yourself and God in this world. This is true.
When you are lost or helpless, remember that God is still with you, he never give up on you.

Sunday 5/4

Today is Sunday, my lovely sunday huh...

Overslept again, didn't go to church -.-  Went for breakfast just now, and now I'm at home :D

Have lots and lots and lots of homework to do. Don't think will post this few days huh..

Thursday will be our choir competition, while sunday I'm going to Cameron Highlands for my pidato state level. Scared scared~ Just knew that all the topics were changed, so I have to memorize all again ): And, I have only one week to do so!!!

But, I'm desperate to win something there :D

If our choir team win, we will go to Kuantan next week. So, my whole week will gone. Can we win? Let's see :D

That's all.

Homework... I'm coming, stop calling me.....

Pictures :D

Choral speaking~
Camera?
Converse
Kah yew, Jiayiee
Girls
Boys
Jolene, Jin yong
Lene, vone, lian, yew
haha. Jooguan, Jolene
Jolene & Daven

To be continue....

FRIENDS

A tired day, can't cope with so much homework to do. I really have a long list to go. SCARY~ Tired from morning until now.
Moody the whole day for don't know what reasons. Morning, suddenly caught by the maths teacher just to explain to us about maths. Then, become moody already. I really don't know what's the reason that I just can't focus to learn maths.
After recess, choir time. Singing~
* How gentle is the rain,
* that falls softly on the meadow,
* birds high up on the trees
* serenade the flow'rs with their melody~
Boys didn't appear -.- just two appeared, jooguan n juijie.

Finished earlier, reached home then quickly bathed because rushing for tuition.
However, went for tuition late also. 2.30- 7pm my brain was full of physics and add- maths.
Headache, still forcing myself to smile. Suddenly, heard a completely bad news from a friend. Mood definitely spoiled, confused, lost don't know what to do. Angry and sad. Quarreled and quarreled. No conclusion.

Next went to pizza hut with friends. Nobody served us so we decided to change to kfc.
No mood at all, can't pretend anymore. I'm sorry to you friends, I'm not purposely showing my face or not answering your questions. I just couldn't control. After that, we went to old town. I actually enjoyed being with a group of friends. It really made me felt warm. But, there are some who were being left out. I'm sorry. I really did my best to join with all of you. It just doesn't work. Is it my fault to call you alll out and make some of us unhappy and bored? I'm sorry. I didn't mean to do so.
Later, we played a stupid game, true or dare which was actually suggested by me. Okay, it was bored I know. It's my poor arrangement and stupid ideas made some of you all so left out. During the game, although we played it in a stupid way, some of us really told the truth which really can make our friendship closer. It's not about talking bad about each other, maybe it's just a special way to understand each other more? Then, one by one of them went back home. I know we felt bored and I feel very sorry la actually. Just really don't know how to explain. But, sincerely, I do feel happy and thankful that I have you all as my friends. Some of us we started from not knowing each other at all, we ended friends now. Although not that close, anyway we still spend our time with each other in school everyday. While there are also some that we know each other for quite long time, many things happended during primary school life, and now we are friends too. Thank God for that.

I'm moody, sad today):
It's just out of control.

HAPPY HAPPY

A great day for Jolene.
I won the pidato diraja for the district level! Wow.. unbelieveable! really thank God!!!
I was the 10th contestant. When the spbi girl went up to perform(she was 8th), I said... Can't win liao lah, she is so good! Then, I started to worry this and that, finally it was my turn. Before I went up, I just pray and hope to do my best and deliver my script well. After that, I felt that I was okay, but still worrying that she might be better and evem won. Anyway, I told myself, I did my best and it's over so that's it.

After the competition, I just could not sit still. Wondering whether how was the results, could I manage to win her. Then, I saw Pn. Yap telling my mum something. From her lips I saw that she was saying the word ''second''. Honestly, I was disappointed and sad that time. I have a aim for every competition. And, I have confidence and I know what I should aim for. So, second can say to be not very good because I feel that I can actually win.

Later, the results was announced. Third was SMK Datuk Bahaman, second was SPBI. I was quite surprised that I thought, if she got second that means I failed? Suddenly, the chairperson said Johan was me! WOw, thank God, and I was so happy! Luckily, I didn't cry ar! haha. Happy happy really happy! I won. I'm the only Chinese and I won :D AGain, praise the Lord! All my hardwork is paid!!!! I practised for it although last minute, stressed for it, couldn't sleep, eat and do anything just because of it, scared and worry, finding famous people so that I would have some of their examples in my script, worried because the menteri belia dan sukan changed.... All and all... Daven knows right how I pass through everything and you gave me the support to continue. Thank you especially to my mum, teachers and friends who went to support me today :D thanks for your cheers :D haha

Very happy today :D will do my best for the state level. If I manage, I hope to get something back from there.

A MEMORABLE DAY!

Wow, CONGRATULATIONS to all of us! We got second for the choral speaking competition!! Which is very very good results! We worked so hard before this. All our hardship is paid!!! Praise the Lord!

When the judges were discussing, I was so nervous I can't sit still at all. I knew Hwa Lian would win because they did very well and also SPBI, we think these are the two teams who would win. So when the chairperson announced that SPBI got third, I was like... '' ok then, there's no more'' '' hope for next year, it's ok, bla bla bla.'' I was consoling myself already. And, all of the sudden, she announced that second place was SMK... TEMERLOH! Wow! I couldn't believe it! Then, I saw all of them clapping and shouting, all joy, smile, laugh, happy were on their face. WE WON!!! Although it's not first, but at least we won something. Second is very good already right? WELL DONE.

After that, we went for lunch. Then only my mum said, she was praying and when the results announced, she was so scared that the person might just add a JAYA behind Temerloh, which would make a big difference! haha! But, when she say TEMERLOH, everyone was clapping and cheering already! Nobody thought of that during that time, because we are HAPPY!

In addition to that, our forum won too I think if I'm not mistaken. Debate didn't pass, bahas reached semi final. TOMORROW, it will be my turn and also Fatin for public speaking. I'm sure we will do our best!! How also I will try to get something back, I knew that it will be weird tomorrow. Because I think I'm the only chinese. Some say like that is better, some say no... Okay, nevermind, it's the fact. So, what to worry? Just go up the stage and give my best. Jolene should never be scared of giving speech. Tried so many times already, so what's the big deal? ok, pray and go up! that's it.

Okay, it's time for my practice to continue! All the best for fuichi and fatin who are taking part in public speaking, and the others who are taking part in pantun? End already? not sure~